I Guess the social aspect. Like if anyone were to find out, they'll be disgusted with me. I'll lose everyone I care about
Does anyone else
need to know?
Your dogs are happier and able to express their desires more freely than the vast majority of canines, you're building up a deep, intimate bond which has much potential for good for you all, and you are also enjoying that on a more primal level, too.
In what way are these not "good things" (presuming care is taken with welfare and pack dynamics)?
Social norms of what is offensive, distasteful, or unpleasant are
not an absolute; there is no "this is the only we can live", just a messed-up chain of history guided by majorities and loud voices leading to the current state of play as to what is generally "acceptable" within the social framework in which we're each raised. In no way does that make those innately "right" or the "only way to live".
Oh, and it sounds like you're not just treating your dogs like your lovers, they
are your lovers. (That little zoophile vs. bestiality distinction that many like around here...).
Do your best for them, but plan ahead - ask yourself what will the relationships be in a week or a month, rather than acting
purely on instinct (good as that can be) - and if you do ease back in any way do so gently as they have now tasted those pleasures forbidden to most canines in such abundance. They have feelings, too... as you are well aware! <3
Best wishes; and to y'all!