Shame attached to my interests

I've been struggling with how to cope with the shame I feel attached to my "Preferences" (Sheep, goats, horses, most hooved or barnyard animals besides pigs and cows). I hate that I'm into this sort of thing at all, and I've never really reached out to like minded people about it either. I've never acted on these urges, and idk if I ever will. I can handle hiding it (my gf and my family don't know, and they never will.) There's times where I can't even looking at myself. Most of the time I just ignore it or suppress it. I don't keep a journal, but I make artwork as a way to vent, and this is my first time on the forum.

What are ways that could possibly help with the guilt?
 

humananimal

Esteemed Citizen of ZV
I don’t know whether it helps. Somehow I am the other way round. I have always had this desire, cows and sows, and on our farm at home, I fucked them as often as possible. To me it was natural. The cows liked to be fucked and I desired her that much too.
Nobody knew about it (I think). Strangely I newer felt shame or guilt in this religious home.
You have never done it, just the desire. Can’t advice much. If you actually do it at some time, the problems will maybe chance.
But maybe you find it is awful and feel worse for what you have done. Or you like it, and then what do you feel then ?
 

FoxandtheHounds

Citizen of Zooville
Well first off welcome to the forum! Secondly, I will say this nicely since some here might not, there is a plethora of information you can find here using the search function. Including threads where others talk about some guilt they might feel or have felt about their love for animals. Though I do understand everyone has a unique situation. But, reading through those other threads could help because we do not know much about you or your exact situation.

With that out of the way, beings I don't know much about your situation or plans I can only offer limited advice. You have to ask yourself where your guilt is actually coming from. Are you feeling that way because of what others might think? Your family or girlfriend maybe? What exactly are the "urges" you speak of? You don't intend to do anything harmful right? If you love the animals you desire and treat them with respect and the care they deserve then you should not feel guilty for that. But, you have to get to what's actually bothering you about your attractions. Also if you've never acted on these "urges" there's even less reason for you to feel guilty. As long as your "urges" are along the lines of having those critters well being in mind. Cannot emphasize that enough. I cannot give any other advice before knowing your full intentions.
 
Well first off welcome to the forum! Secondly, I will say this nicely since some here might not, there is a plethora of information you can find here using the search function. Including threads where others talk about some guilt they might feel or have felt about their love for animals. Though I do understand everyone has a unique situation. But, reading through those other threads could help because we do not know much about you or your exact situation.

With that out of the way, beings I don't know much about your situation or plans I can only offer limited advice. You have to ask yourself where your guilt is actually coming from. Are you feeling that way because of what others might think? Your family or girlfriend maybe? What exactly are the "urges" you speak of? You don't intend to do anything harmful right? If you love the animals you desire and treat them with respect and the care they deserve then you should not feel guilty for that. But, you have to get to what's actually bothering you about your attractions. Also if you've never acted on these "urges" there's even less reason for you to feel guilty. As long as your "urges" are along the lines of having those critters well being in mind. Cannot emphasize that enough. I cannot give any other advice before knowing your full intentions.
Thanks for welcoming me :D
Maybe I should elaborate a bit more
I don't wanna do anything harmful to the animals, I'm no zoosadist or anything like that
I have strong desires to become intimate with a sheep or horse, I've wanted this since I was like 13 tbh
I've dealt with these conflicting emotions for years. Sheep, horses, goats, I find them very attractive. My gf and I trash on zoos a lot (that's my "cover" lolol), and she'd for sure leave my ass if she found out
I love her so much, but this is something she absolutely cannot find out about me. It'd ruin us.

These desires are very powerful, a few occasions I've gotten depressed because I haven't been able to do what I really wanna do

I find these animals (sheep, goats, horses, so on) very beautiful, and I would do nothing but love and care for one if I were to ever have one.
My guilt comes from knowing how frowned upon these desires are. I know for a fact my gf and a lot of my family would drop me in a heartbeat
I keep all my "interesting" pics on an encrypted SD card and hide it in a drawer.

Hopefully that helps some. I'd love to meet friends here so dms are welcomed-
Thank you
 

DaneLover1

Esteemed Citizen of ZV
Let me start by saying welcome to the community!

These feeling of guilt that you are feeling are not uncommon. Many people on here feel the same way that you do, especially when they are first starting out. But there is nothing to be ashamed of. It is perfect heathy to be attracted to our four legged friends, whether you act on those attractions or not is your choice. I personally could not live happily, and would be deeply depressed as you stated, if I tried to suppress my zoo side. Having sex with animals is not a bad thing, as long as you always put the animals wants and needs first. Contrary to popular belief, mutually enjoyable interspecies sex is possible. I hope this helps, and if you have any other questions, feel free to ask!
 

ryirkil

Citizen of Zooville
My gf and I trash on zoos a lot (that's my "cover" lolol), and she'd for sure leave my ass if she found out
I love her so much, but this is something she absolutely cannot find out about me. It'd ruin us.
It makes sense to feel guilt if you have to "trash" on yourself in public. Probably not the only factor. Support group can help, feel free to make friends here.

I keep all my "interesting" pics on an encrypted SD card and hide it in a drawer.

Hopefully that helps some.
Watch out for thumbnails. Not likely anyone will find them without purposefully searching for evidence but still, good to keep in mind.
 

GoTa

Tourist
I've been struggling with how to cope with the shame I feel attached to my "Preferences" (Sheep, goats, horses, most hooved or barnyard animals besides pigs and cows). I hate that I'm into this sort of thing at all, and I've never really reached out to like minded people about it either. I've never acted on these urges, and idk if I ever will. I can handle hiding it (my gf and my family don't know, and they never will.) There's times where I can't even looking at myself. Most of the time I just ignore it or suppress it. I don't keep a journal, but I make artwork as a way to vent, and this is my first time on the forum.

What are ways that could possibly help with the guilt?
I feel like im in the same process. I regularly feel the guilt and shame as well after masturbating on dog porn.. i try to focus on the feeling and accept that its there and not having any judgements about it. Its hard but i think in the end its much harder to suppress these emotions especially when you know that it will be a never ending fight.
 

du6721

Tourist
I feel like im in the same process. I regularly feel the guilt and shame as well after masturbating on dog porn.. i try to focus on the feeling and accept that its there and not having any judgements about it. Its hard but i think in the end its much harder to suppress these emotions especially when you know that it will be a never ending fight.
its not never ending. other ideas will come along and current ideas and thoughts will be forgotten. Teaching your brain to think about other things will create new ideas that will cover previous ones.
Just like how you forget about previous relationships, pains, etc.
dont take the plunge as theres no going back
 

SaraZooville

Tourist
I feel like im in the same process. I regularly feel the guilt and shame as well after masturbating on dog porn.. i try to focus on the feeling and accept that its there and not having any judgements about it. Its hard but i think in the end its much harder to suppress these emotions especially when you know that it will be a never ending fight.
I think it's much more about us girls we care much more strongly about what others think and what others should think about us than what men do, therefore many of us have greater Shame attached.
 
I think it's much more about us girls we care much more strongly about what others think and what others should think about us than what men do, therefore many of us have greater Shame attached.
Shame and guilt are natural feelings of emotion. They tell us right between wrong and in this situation, well, we're not going to explain to anyone how good it is without sounding like a complete zoo slut :p
 
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