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What was the moment you realized this wasn’t going away?

When I first realised I found animals sexually attractive, it was while I was on antidepressants that absolutely messed up my sex drive. I told myself "It's only a weird fetish, it's because of the antidepressants, it'll go away when I stop taking them."
But I soon realised it was more than that and it wasn't going away. Though I think the moment when I truly recognised how much more it was to me was when I noticed I wanted to feel for an animal the way I'd previously felt for other humans. In other words, I sort of wanted to fall in love.
 
When I was younger I saw some zoo stuff online and I couldn't turn away. Instantly hooked. Had my first experience with a female dog around that point, but I was constantly in denial. Took my first knot around 22-23 and I have been addicted ever since.
 
You folks are lucky to have grown up with the internet. When I was first feeling the urge to breed mares, my only "porn" was the popular cowboy movies! Being a city boy, I settled on a beautiful collie girl for my first lover and she was all in on the idea. But mares were my big turn on. Then, in college, I discovered a riding stable at a nearby resort. I went there with no knowledge if what I wanted to do was even possible! I had ridden horses but only in a public setting, so I had never touched them.

The kid running the place asked me what I wanted. I saw a mare standing there who seemed to be winking her pussy, and pointed to her. The guy said, "Yeah, she has a great pussy." I didn't expect such a blunt assessment, and was speechless! I rode her high on the mountain and found a point in the trail that went over a series of slate steps that looked perfect. I climbed down, with her butt just past one of these steps, holding the reins as I walked behind her. Her tail was slightly elevated, and when I pulled it aside she started winking again. Looking back, I realize she was no virgin to men as well as being in heat.

The attraction was overwhelming. I HAD to mate with her even if it killed me. To my utter amazement, she let me do whatever I wished and that soon led to me losing my load in her. As I pulled out, I was alarmed to see my cum following my cock in a long thick stream. Scared of this happening when I returned her, I used some dry leaves to remove the evidence.

I had never seen myself as going down a life long path, I just saw it as a one time itch that I wanted to scratch. Remember, as far as I knew, I was the only zoo in the world. But that experience would remain the defining moment of my life. I dated and had relations with several women, expecting that would be even better, but somehow it never seemed like what I really wanted. It was probably the aftermath of the human sex that made me realize I was a dyed in the wool horse fucker!
 
I was around 23ish years old that I realized this kink/lifestyle wasn't going to go away for me. It still took me quite a bit of time to accept myself. That only happened about two years ago. I'm 27 currently.
 
AtomicCookie said:
When I first left for Uni I had a dry spell for several months. Had a room mate and lived in a building that did not allow pets, not that I had time for one. But I became so unbearably horny in the weeks leading up to my first break when I was going home. And when I got there I could not wait for everyone to go to sleep so I could get some play time in with my boy Ozzy. I fucked him ragged those couple weeks. Made me understand exactly how desperately I needed and wanted him and dogs as sexual partners.
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and the fact that he wanted you just as bad is amazing, feeling so wanted also
 
I'm still figuring myself out, But I don't see it going away honestly. The first time was more of a curiosity thing, but now, I am just hooked, so yeah, I guess I realized within the first week of it lol
 
Mine started out with an accidental download on a torrent file sharing engine called bear share and have been hooked since. At first I was like wtf and then I felt that pulsating feeling in my cock and grabbed it and noticed I was hard as a rock. And you could guess what came after ha ha
 
LadyMay00 said:
I haven’t 100% accepted that this isn’t going away. ?
I still feel a lot of shame. This is the 2nd account I’ve made for this site because I purposely locked myself out of the first one so I wouldn’t be tempted to come back….but look how that worked.

I finally have an intact large male dog and I’m debating on just getting him neutered so I’m not tempted.
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Its not going away :) .. no need for shame and just accept it. There are many benefits to keeping him intact!
 
LadyMay00 said:
I haven’t 100% accepted that this isn’t going away. ?
I still feel a lot of shame. This is the 2nd account I’ve made for this site because I purposely locked myself out of the first one so I wouldn’t be tempted to come back….but look how that worked.

I finally have an intact large male dog and I’m debating on just getting him neutered so I’m not tempted.
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Please dont get him neutered if you dont need to.
 
LadyMay00 said:
I haven’t 100% accepted that this isn’t going away. ?
I still feel a lot of shame. This is the 2nd account I’ve made for this site because I purposely locked myself out of the first one so I wouldn’t be tempted to come back….but look how that worked.

I finally have an intact large male dog and I’m debating on just getting him neutered so I’m not tempted.
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I wouldn't say neutering should be done just to avoid the temptation. While saying "just don't think about it" can be said easy, the best I can think of is try doing something else that occupy's your time and can get your mind off of it.
Just keep it to some innocent fun with your puppy, and just looking at the picture, I'm assuming he's still young. Once he gets older and you have a slight curiosity, just see how he will react.
Just know that being a zoophile doesn't mean you HAVE to have sex.
 
Right now. This is the moment I realise its not going away. Im recognising this right now. Over some months back and forth. Maybe years but reaching a climax or better still resolution.

There is this constant tug-o-war between my libidinal sexy self and the controlling ego/mind. After I pack up from here and go leave horn-central, the shutters come down and up pops the shame, rational etc. So much fear and pain in that. But I am coming to see that when my body twitches again for zoo or other phantasmagoria that spikes the lust, I have no choice. My body wants that. I want that pleasure, exploration and what feels to me like a mystical experience.

I'm not even practising zoo. Its only fantasy.

So tonight I started to write an email from my sexy self here, to my normal rational self there tomorrow, showing the advantages of embracing all of me and not just the ego sanctioned 'good' part of me.

I think it might help.
 

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It was recent for me actually. I've tried literally everything I could; hypnosis therapy, EMDR, talking with experts, praying, avoidance, drinking etc. I had ran out of options to "deal" with it, and decided I should just accept it. It was about a 21 year journey for me.
 
ShyStableBoy95 said:
It was recent for me actually. I've tried literally everything I could; hypnosis therapy, EMDR, talking with experts, praying, avoidance, drinking etc. I had ran out of options to "deal" with it, and decided I should just accept it. It was about a 21 year journey for me.
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I am sorry you went through all that!!! I have gone so far that I am very very happy I was born a zoo!
BTW, have you figured out that religion is a scam yet?
 
When I discovered a certain site with great stories of all genres and someone on another site said don't click on Bestiality, Well, what is a horny bottom guy supposed to do? Once I found an author whose work I liked, never been as hard and turned on in my life. Never got the chance to try for real until this year and 3 boys have enjoyed what I believe is a very natural sexual experience. They have a look in their eyes and you know they are saying, get your ass out I want it. It's never going to go away. x
 
Old Zoo said:
I am sorry you went through all that!!! I have gone so far that I am very very happy I was born a zoo!
BTW, have you figured out that religion is a scam yet?
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I'm Catholic. Determining whether religion is a scam or not is part of your personal journey. I'm actually incredibly happy to be Catholic as well. I understand my personal relationship with God and religion and it hasn't scammed me.

I do, however, understand the raw push back and force religion has when trying to shape morals in society and stuff and understand the tension between schools of different thought.
 
After few weeks after incident years ago when my previous dog humped on me in family party while playing games. I had a lot of fantasies later about it and realised that dog/wolf kink is totally mine.

Meg
 
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I realized quite late that this was it. This was me, for good or worse.
My first experience was our family's goldie. After our first time together, which was sweet, naive and just happened, I was hooked. I loved him and he loved me. It was emotional and physical. This went on for a few years, but unfortunately, he passed away at an early age.

I moved country to study and met a guy. He was kind and nice, but we were incompatible in the long run. I still had a longing for something and after some soul-searching, it was just obvious to me. After meeting my rottie and bringing him home, there hasn't been any questions. I knew that I couldn't live without intimacy and that it was fait accompli. It hasn't always been an easy ride though. But I do not regret it.
 
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