bendthatstraw
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18f. For me, it was when I was around 15-16.. but I only accepted it a couple days ago. I am here to finally not be ashamed of my attractions<3
That's true. Watching videos was what made this seem real for me. My time to overcome the shame was quite a bit longer, but sure the videos got me there. Watching it told me something I could not deny was true. From then on, it was not a matter of fighting the urge, but of fighting for my own acceptance.Not too long after I first started watching videos of it. Once you take that first step it's very hard to step away from it, even if it's something you're ashamed of. I've long since accepted it as part of who I am though
A good reason. Enjoy your life.I would say in college. Up until then it was kind of like a dark addiction that needed to be filled. But I was sitting there with this guy that did not help around the apartment, was not that good at sex, shared little to no interest in the same things, had a negative attitude and other things. It was at that point like many people have said I realized dogs just wanted to be there for you and be with you and exchange love and happiness. Took out the trash and sought out a more permanent and loving partner.
Scratches or it didn't happenI was sitting on my bed crying after yet another bad breakup and contemplating suicide when my dog came up, sat in my lap, and licked the tears away. I had been experimenting with zoo up until then. I'd always loved dogs, but that's when i knew only a dog would never hurt me. Aside from a few scratches on my side. ;-P
While I have no experience, this sorta describes my thoughts with this. First time I was told this happened by a girl, I was more intrigued with her, but an online chatroom with others embedded the thought into my mind and it came and went for years. Maybe 20 years or so ago it got more consistent and my ex and I would watch videos and I'd visited chatrooms more. When I became single I found forums and my own desires grew, not only to watch, but to try too. Sometimes I can go for a bit with no thoughts, but that echo of enjoying the thought of women and seeing the pics/videos/stories is there, but my own desires will surge now and then. Like you, sometimes it's strong and I really want to try and crave to find out the experience, others I'm more content wanting to be with a woman enjoying her experience. Right now, probably midway. Last week didn't think it at all, but was out of town working. Now catching up here and online definitely still wish I had a woman to watch or knew one, but could be coaxed by her to go further myself. It's been awhile since I was "hunting," but still get surges of hoping and craving for my own experience. But then I pull my own knot dildo out to try and contain those desires and my wishes of a woman just as interested in helping/watching me.Not a specific moment. Once I got the desire, it keeps coming back. Sometimes the desire is there, sometimes the desire is very strong. This has been the case for at least 15 years