This was really hard as a gay bottom to accept for myself...
When I was having my "sexual awakening" my older sibling had off handed mentioned something about monkey sex videos, and I was thinking, there's no way that's a thing. I had already been watching porn for a while and always seemed to emphasize the penis being what I liked the most. (not realizing at the time it was because I was gay) I quickly realized I wasn't interested in monkeys, but there were also many pictures and videos of horses/dogs that I did find exciting. I almost immediately knew that I was gay for animals from that point, but I felt such shame towards both wanting animals, and being gay. At times even feeling prejudice for being ''extra" gay because I was specifically/only a bottom.. I do feel lucky that I was confronted with these feelings so early, because it was almost a decade of internal processing, feeling shame, and self harm before I realized I wasn't a rapist, or straight.