Well first off welcome to the forum! Secondly, I will say this nicely since some here might not, there is a plethora of information you can find here using the search function. Including threads where others talk about some guilt they might feel or have felt about their love for animals. Though I do understand everyone has a unique situation. But, reading through those other threads could help because we do not know much about you or your exact situation.
With that out of the way, beings I don't know much about your situation or plans I can only offer limited advice. You have to ask yourself where your guilt is actually coming from. Are you feeling that way because of what others might think? Your family or girlfriend maybe? What exactly are the "urges" you speak of? You don't intend to do anything harmful right? If you love the animals you desire and treat them with respect and the care they deserve then you should not feel guilty for that. But, you have to get to what's actually bothering you about your attractions. Also if you've never acted on these "urges" there's even less reason for you to feel guilty. As long as your "urges" are along the lines of having those critters well being in mind. Cannot emphasize that enough. I cannot give any other advice before knowing your full intentions.
Thanks for welcoming me
Maybe I should elaborate a bit more
I don't wanna do anything harmful to the animals, I'm no zoosadist or anything like that
I have strong desires to become intimate with a sheep or horse, I've wanted this since I was like 13 tbh
I've dealt with these conflicting emotions for years. Sheep, horses, goats, I find them very attractive. My gf and I trash on zoos a lot (that's my "cover" lolol), and she'd for sure leave my ass if she found out
I love her so much, but this is something she absolutely cannot find out about me. It'd ruin us.
These desires are very powerful, a few occasions I've gotten depressed because I haven't been able to do what I really wanna do
I find these animals (sheep, goats, horses, so on) very beautiful, and I would do nothing but love and care for one if I were to ever have one.
My guilt comes from knowing how frowned upon these desires are. I know for a fact my gf and a lot of my family would drop me in a heartbeat
I keep all my "interesting" pics on an encrypted SD card and hide it in a drawer.
Hopefully that helps some. I'd love to meet friends here so dms are welcomed-
Thank you