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as the title says, im hoping to find a way for me to stop having these feelings, this will slightly be a rant, as i cant talk to anyone i know about this. through a series of childhood events, i find myself now attracted to animals, mainly in a sexual context. but through these same events, i have been struggling with somewhat of a sex addiction, and i belive my attraction to animals isnt a true part of myself how it is to some, i belive this to be part of my addiction, and these feelings cause me an immense amount of guilt. ive never done anything inappropriate with a non human, but im strongly attracted to them nonetheless, and enjoy the content of other people. i dont want this to be part of my life, i want to live a happy, guilt free life with a human partner. and im too afraid and guilt ridden to ever speak with a professional about these feelings. ive tried to ween myself off of this content, but i circle back to it every time. i dont know if this even really makes me a zoophile, or just a weird porn addict, but i feel so guilty and scared, i could never have any of this be part of my lifestyle, id only feel guiltier because of it. and i could loose so many people that are dear to me. so, is there any way for me to stop this? without having to admit this to a professional?