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Feeling of guilt

I go through weeks of feeling disgusted with myself and then all of a sudden I find myself doing things that are more and more risqué. Last night after my partner and I had sex (our sex life is great btw so I’m not a neglected wife or anything) he fell asleep and I was browsing here and ended up letting our dog lick me to a quick orgasm under the covers with my sleeping partner next to me snoring away. I was so turned on two licks on my clit and I was biting into the pillow at which point had he rolled over I don’t know what I’d have said. Stupid really.
 
Oh, sure, there's a lot of shit to work through and its worthwhile to do so. I was pre-pubescent when the spectacle of k9 virility was first introduced - and later k9 present at my first orgasm. Four years later we had become lovers. I love him. And he loved me. When i was naked with my lover we were equal. The same being. Crawling under him and pressing my well licked asshole into his crotch was divine, heaven on earth. As an adult i'm very much at piece with my desires. My excitement of 'anything' dog cock or knot related. I have not had k9 lover since. If I do I know it will be the right situation - because it will never happen otherwise. And if it never does, I'm ok with that too. But it took a while to get there.
 

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Definitely have dealt with guilt in the past, especially being raised the way I was. Ultimately its to each their own to accept and come to terms with their feelings or desires. I wasn't raised in a sex positive household, then discovering zoo porn in my early teens was indescribable, it was a major turn on but made me feel quite guilty as well. Eventually as I got older I read and learned what I could to gain a healthier mindset towards sex and myself. I'm aware that I'm not in control of what turns me on and what doesn't and to deny myself the fact that watching a woman with an animal is something I find incredibly exciting just doesn't feel true to myself. Either way I feel as though many many people deal with guilt regarding their kinks, even more this with the way it's perceived and how society as a whole seems to feel about it. To anyone feeling guilt, cut yourself some slack, do some reflecting and soul searching, research if you need to as well. But ultimately it lies on each individual to come to terms with it and how to proceed with that.
 
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Hi Knotty, fellow Melbournite here.

the guilt and shame stuff is familiar to me too. You’re not a bad person for having unconventional desires or for finding ways to meet them; but it can certainly feel that way when you feel forced to keep them secret. And covid has been isolating for us all in a way that makes us extra-reliant on the people around us AND the things that make us feel good.
only you can judge whether there’s a way to safely broach the topic with your partner, but as someone who has crossed that bridge a number of times in my relationships I’d be happy to offer some advice if it’s welcome?
 
MelbDaddy said:
Hi Knotty, fellow Melbournite here.

the guilt and shame stuff is familiar to me too. You’re not a bad person for having unconventional desires or for finding ways to meet them; but it can certainly feel that way when you feel forced to keep them secret. And covid has been isolating for us all in a way that makes us extra-reliant on the people around us AND the things that make us feel good.
only you can judge whether there’s a way to safely broach the topic with your partner, but as someone who has crossed that bridge a number of times in my relationships I’d be happy to offer some advice if it’s welcome?
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Hi you’re absolutely right about Covid. It’s driving me crazy. It’s also making harder to be alone to feel comfortable. I’m constantly around my partner and constantly around our dog. And constantly horny, and then constantly guilty for sneaking around behind his back in our home. Or locking myself in the bathroom to read/post here.
 
knottymelbourne said:
Hi you’re absolutely right about Covid. It’s driving me crazy. It’s also making harder to be alone to feel comfortable. I’m constantly around my partner and constantly around our dog. And constantly horny, and then constantly guilty for sneaking around behind his back in our home. Or locking myself in the bathroom to read/post here.
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sounds like you might just need to bite the bullet and tell him. it sucks to be hiding something from someone you love
 
knottymelbourne said:
Hi everyone

Just wondering if anyone else goes through moments of guilt about their fetish? I have moments where I feel really down that I do this behind my partners back, that looking at animal porn is wrong, that Im taking advantage of our dog, it seems to go through varying degrees. Im even sometimes convinced that after I have moments where I am really into it and being really naughty I then have periods of really bad luck, like something bad happens and the universe is punishing me. Which I know is silly, but then I have thoughts of like, is it really?

And then I kind of try to stop, which lasts a week, two, tops, and then Im so horny and so turned on that I take major risks like pretending to go to the kitchen in the middle of the night for a glass of water just so I can let our dog lick me for a few seconds. And I feel so turned on 24/7 and free for a while, and then will have another time where I am guilty again.

Covid lock downs seem to affect it as well. Being home all the time now I am SO turned on I just want to spread my legs for our boy and I want to share it openly with my husband to stop the guilt from setting in but I am so scared, yet horny.

It's just a constant up and down of wanting it, wanting acceptance, to being ashamed, to trying to ignore it, to then being so turned on I cant think of anything else and can not control it.

Sometimes I think I am going crazy
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Early moments of feeling some shame that have since departed. For awhile, I knew I was allowing access to often during the week, but the guilt or shame only fell on me after he pulled out and I still had needs... Sprint ahead three years and I was seldom left unsatisfied and rarely felt shame or guilt.
Still wonder once in awhile how difficult things could get if our secret affair with the dogs was ever exposed. The Covid response seems to be fairly normal and quite common....
 
I've had several chances to gently explore with dogs, one a very loving and friendly but clipped male and a shy but affectionate intact female, but every time I would be too nervous and guilty about what I was going to do, so I never did much beyond cumming onto the floor in front of the girl dog. Nowadays I feel guilty I never took the chance to experience even seeing how they feel if I were to touch them. Even that last sentence feels creepy after typing it, lol... I'm in hell haha
 
ScotExotic said:
I never feel guilt about the fetish. The only times I'll feel guilt is when I tread into the territory of addiction. Then I'll step away and abstain, get really horny and that absolves all the guilt. Nothing in itself wrong with enjoying animal porn, animal sex, or even doing it behind your partners back in my opinion. Its an animal. It doesn't count as cheating. Its also completely understandable why you're not being open with them about it. And you would only be taking advantage of the dog if this was non consensual and I don't think that's what you're doing. I say just keep enjoying your little secret guilt free.
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Yeah, overall I feel less guilt now than I did then. Now it's more like, I really want to play with and enjoy physical connection with other animals and dealing with all those kinds of feelings, you know
 
Sometimes when I'm super horny I can get kind of freaky and that has made me examine myself. Also I have felt bad when I get off 5 or more times in a day, no matter how I do it.

I think if I was actually a bad person though I'd have to be hurting something else. I usually stick to jacking off and letting a dog lick me while I do. Also all my dogs totally want to mount me when I I let them, so what's the real harm? I am definitely weird, but I am not manipulating a woman's feeling to get into bed with them, then leaving them when I get what I want. Not caring about the affect this has on them for instance. That is more normal than letting a dog eat you out but there's no real harm in this last scenario.
 
Kyurious14U said:
The best thing to that I found which helps, is a partner that is into it and understands...
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Sadly, most of us are unable to find a partner into it, especially for guys that are straight. Not enough women on here and it is hard for a guy to out himself to his GF in hopes she is also into it, while chancing she is not and will turn him in.

I am thankful I have no guilt over giving my stallions an orgasm using my ass.
 
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well, guilt is usually part of the cycle in any out of the accepted norm human behavior, it's also relative to what kind of restrictions are imposed on your society, for an example if you were born in a country that legalizes weed... you will never feel the guilt of a conservatively raised religious person who occassionally takes a couple of puffs
 
Anubis83 said:
well, guilt is usually part of the cycle in any out of the accepted norm human behavior, it's also relative to what kind of restrictions are imposed on your society, for an example if you were born in a country that legalizes weed... you will never feel the guilt of a conservatively raised religious person who occassionally takes a couple of puffs
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I disagree. Guilt is tied to a person's personality.
Zoophilia is illegal in every state I have ever lived in, however I have never felt any guilt over having sex with animals, despite it is not the norm.
Having sex with an animal does not harm anyone, does not harm the animal etc., so why should I feel guilty.

Now, if I was to do something during sex to accidentally hurt an animal (like someone having sex with an animal that is too small, too young, resisting and they try to force etc.), then I would feel guilt. But when I let my stallions hump me up the butt, none of those things happen, so there is absolutely no reason for me to feel guilt, and thus, I don't!
 
Axis-deer said:
I disagree. Guilt is tied to a person's personality.
Zoophilia is illegal in every state I have ever lived in, however I have never felt any guilt over having sex with animals, despite it is not the norm.
Having sex with an animal does not harm anyone, does not harm the animal etc., so why should I feel guilty.

Now, if I was to do something during sex to accidentally hurt an animal (like someone having sex with an animal that is too small, too young, resisting and they try to force etc.), then I would feel guilt. But when I let my stallions hump me up the butt, none of those things happen, so there is absolutely no reason for me to feel guilt, and thus, I don't!
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All I'm saying is that guilt is relative to ones limit of taboos, what someone sees as a taboo someone else might not... guilt about something is just a reflection of the inner convection about that thing :)
 
I'm always rather passive / submissive if I let a dog mount me (F35), and never force him to do anything. If I then feel how keen he is to hump me and have his way, I don't think he's suffering from the experience. Also, as soon as I start offering myself to my dog, he gets really excited and can't wait to jump me. That are not signs of a dog that is suffering from the experience, quite the opposite. So, I don't feel guilty.
 
Anja123 said:
I'm always rather passive / submissive if I let a dog mount me (F35), and never force him to do anything. If I then feel how keen he is to hump me and have his way, I don't think he's suffering from the experience. Also, as soon as I start offering myself to my dog, he gets really excited and can't wait to jump me. That are not signs of a dog that is suffering from the experience, quite the opposite. So, I don't feel guilty.
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You must feel incredible to him if he can't wait to be inside you.
 
I've been struggling with how to cope with the shame I feel attached to my "Preferences" (Sheep, goats, horses, most hooved or barnyard animals besides pigs and cows). I hate that I'm into this sort of thing at all, and I've never really reached out to like minded people about it either. I've never acted on these urges, and idk if I ever will. I can handle hiding it (my gf and my family don't know, and they never will.) There's times where I can't even looking at myself. Most of the time I just ignore it or suppress it. I don't keep a journal, but I make artwork as a way to vent, and this is my first time on the forum.

What are ways that could possibly help with the guilt?
 
I don’t know whether it helps. Somehow I am the other way round. I have always had this desire, cows and sows, and on our farm at home, I fucked them as often as possible. To me it was natural. The cows liked to be fucked and I desired her that much too.
Nobody knew about it (I think). Strangely I newer felt shame or guilt in this religious home.
You have never done it, just the desire. Can’t advice much. If you actually do it at some time, the problems will maybe chance.
But maybe you find it is awful and feel worse for what you have done. Or you like it, and then what do you feel then ?
 
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