24F and feeling guilty...

tilladilla

tilladilla

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Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
 

Curiosity with becoming zoo.

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Why I Am A Zoo

I was young when it first happened. A glance here, a look there. Why was I feeling strange things while looking at dogs and horses? At the time, with no reference, I thought it was 'normal'. I would come to find out, society would see it as...
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Here are a few resources that may help you get started. Remember, you're not alone in this. Many people here have had those same thoughts as you.
 
You sound like a very caring person so you put others feelings before your own but maybe this time you should make a leap of faith and trust that the one you love will have your back when you ask them about this. If you keep something like this bottled up it might not be so good when it pops.
But this is just the advice from a silly person on the internet. In the end it's you that will decide. Keep your chin up! Things will work out.
 
I'd say the the fact he "got hard" over the story of you watching zoo videos & you promised to show him it, I think your best option is to *accidentally* find it on your phone/laptop whatever like Oopsie didn't know that was here I meant to delete it... and just show it to him, gauge his reaction.

If successful, just move slowly make him feel your both exploring that direction together which keeps him comfortable and doesn't intimidate him with the added bonus that he's just as guilty as you are if you are doing it together, far less likely for anything to come back at you should the relationship not work out.

and If it does work out, you'll have a partner whose totally on board with you getting stuffed by the dog, perfect. :love:

Of course if you are feeling really guilty, you can always take the leap of faith approach but definitely do some groundwork first to make sure he has an interest.
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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Why do you feel guilty? It already sounds like your partner is extremely turned on by the thought of you and a dog. It sounds like you should just be honest with him and see where it might lead to?? You never know it may lead to something wonderful for the two of you!!!!
 
I totally get it, I felt the same, also AFAB and hit it from my partner for a long time. It took me a long time to get over feeling shame but realised after a similar set of experiences when I was pre-teen its what has made me into who I am today, both sexually and not. If you feel like by experiencing a dog is a form of cheating, then yeah getting permission from your partner will be important and it will be the biggest test of trust, if you dont' well then I saw, experiment away!
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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I can sort of put myself in your shoes because when I was younger I would watch zoo videos too and sort of fell off from it . Now that I’m older I reignited that spark and started watching more . Off course now I have my partner and had been hiding it from her for years and it made me feel guilty as well . How do I explain that I get off watching dogs knot females ? Eventually she found out on her own and it really didn’t go well. Made me feel embarrassed 😳. Now she has accepted that fact that I still watch it . Don’t hide who you Are . Everything will fall into place.
 
Welcome to the group. From what you have said, you sound already halfway there. As mentioned he admitted an interest in the past and was aroused when you mentioned it. I think he just might go over the edge in a good way if you prompted this interest more. If he had and still has an interest, he's probably hidden it from you too. As mentioned, maybe a random video, or "here's one of those videos I told you about" or maybe admire a Bad Dragon toy and comment how you wonder what it would feel like. I think you are on the cusp to conversing and having a partner interested with you.

When my ex first found out my interest when we first started dating, I was at work on the phone with her and she wanted to watch some porn on my computer, what I had saved and was interested in. I told her the folder...then remember that folder also had my beast porn. I stopped her from searching further and confessed on the phone what she would find. Sweating and thinking my relationship had just ended as I waited and she went straight to the folder. Then she commented about it being interesting and watched some more. When I got home she mentioned wanting to watch more videos, but also asked to find more horse ones. For a few years we had beast porn in our mix for date night. She knew I wanted to watch it one day and she wanted to see more videos with actual horse penetrations, which was hard to find.

Then one night she asked if I would think any differently of her if she ever tried it. You only live once, so why not try, she said. Of course I said no, I'd love her even more since watching a woman was one of my fantasies. I was excited that my gf (or was she wife now?) wanted to be knotted. I was turned on beyond belief and had a great sex night together. Unfortunately she was usually drunk when it came to that, so later denied ever mentioning it, but I was thrilled while we were having sex with the idea that my wife might have a dog inside her and his cum and she was mine, not a fantasy on an old blurry internet video! She did many things that made me lose respect as the marriage failed, but if she had had been knotted, that would not be one of the reasons for the loss of respect. That might have been one of the bonds helping hold it together because we did share such a special moment. Unless she did it without me and behind my back, knowing it was my fantasy.

So right now, it sounds like you could be on the verge to at least watching movies together, fantasizing about it together, and conversations spawned. It felt good that my ex didn't leave me that first time and that it turned out she wanted to see more with me. Feel out the terrain and from what you said, it seems like you might be happily surprised. :)
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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that definition changes between relationships one partner may consider it hot another may think its ok but be jealous , one may think its completely cheating . there is no ONE answer everyone is different and every relationship is different I was in a similar situation so I can definitely tell you that there are as many answers to this as there are colors in the world ! ,
but you have a good start it seems to be that he's curious about it and who knows maybe he will help you get your fantasies and curiosity satisfied ! good luck
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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Hello and welcome. It gets easier
 
If you take the challenge and do it before informing the boyfriend, nothing bad will happen - you want it so much and he got hard at the thought of it
life is too short for long meditation
what decision you will not make - I wish you good luck and happiness;)
 
beast123456 said:
I can sort of put myself in your shoes because when I was younger I would watch zoo videos too and sort of fell off from it . Now that I’m older I reignited that spark and started watching more . Off course now I have my partner and had been hiding it from her for years and it made me feel guilty as well . How do I explain that I get off watching dogs knot females ? Eventually she found out on her own and it really didn’t go well. Made me feel embarrassed 😳. Now she has accepted that fact that I still watch it . Don’t hide who you Are . Everything will fall into place.
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Same here ..I met my current partner on BF...got together but never got a dog or played with any dogs. Now after many years...we only share a life...not even sleep in the same room...so I still enjoy beast porn... just only in private. But that's about to change.
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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it sounds like your partner is down for it
 
jesshotdog said:
i wouldn't tell him anything and live out your fantasies it's your life your relationship with your partner might not last forever :gsd_grin:
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That is solid advice as you never know how a relationship will turn out.. On the other hand, he has not expressed disgust and seems to be into the idea of it. Maybe it is something you can gently explore further? Couples who share this successfully are very rare and you would be fortunate to count yourselves amongst that lot.
 
K9GuyinTX said:
That is solid advice as you never know how a relationship will turn out.. On the other hand, he has not expressed disgust and seems to be into the idea of it. Maybe it is something you can gently explore further? Couples who share this successfully are very rare and you would be fortunate to count yourselves amongst that lot.
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That's horrible advice
 
Wow! I appreciate all the feedback and support in this thread. It's getting late here or I'd reply to everyone and explain some things. I have a small update though. We were masturbating together, and I showed him a 3d animated video of a giant wolfman having sex with a woman. I then started to find more realistic ones, and subscribed to a patreon of an artist that makes 3d animations of zoo stuff. I told him. Then when I told him that there was some good stuff, he asked to see some and specifically requested "Ahem, a pet video if you don't mind". He is usually into monster men, but him being interested in the dog videos really excited me even more. I think in the next few weeks, I'll show him a real video.
 
tilladilla said:
Wow! I appreciate all the feedback and support in this thread. It's getting late here or I'd reply to everyone and explain some things. I have a small update though. We were masturbating together, and I showed him a 3d animated video of a giant wolfman having sex with a woman. I then started to find more realistic ones, and subscribed to a patreon of an artist that makes 3d animations of zoo stuff. I told him. Then when I told him that there was some good stuff, he asked to see some and specifically requested "Ahem, a pet video if you don't mind". He is usually into monster men, but him being interested in the dog videos really excited me even more. I think in the next few weeks, I'll show him a real video.
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Communication is key. Don't let him get cucked by the dog
 
tilladilla said:
Hey everyone. I've got to prepare for work so I won't have time to write much... here goes: I'm Tilla. 24, female (AFAB). And nowadays it seems like the only thing I can get off to is zoo stuff. When I was younger, in my preteens, I tried something with a dog I was dogsitting. He was well-endowed, but since I was pre-teen, I was afraid to put him inside.
Now I'm of course older. I've dreamed of getting stuffed with a fat knot for a really long time. I used to watch zoo stuff every once in a while years ago, but the guilt always got to me... and yet I still masturbated and came. :)
I've been with my partner for years now, and just a few months ago, I admitted to him that I had "read some erotic stories" about a dog. He admitted to me that he used to get off to reading that sort of stuff in his college years. I then went a little further, and admitted to him that while we were dating, I had watched some female+dog stuff... He got super hard, which was hot and exciting for me! I told him I would show him the video some day and I still haven't. But I told him ultimately that I wasn't interested in trying that stuff.
What he doesn't know, however, is that I've signed up to this forum, and that I still want to be stuffed by a dog. When we do things doggy-style, I tend to imagine, yknow... a dog. Hah. Which leads me to a question... is it cheating if you get stuffed by a knot without telling your partner? I was curious, because I want to try it so badly... but I don't think he would be into it unless it was a dire situation -- like his dick suddenly vanished. I doubt I'll ever get to try... but dream about it daily.

At any rate, I will be posting here and there. I have a few videos I want to share and am excited to find likeminded individuals. Like I said, I feel guilty for hiding this stuff from my partner, but he's such a sweet guy.
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if hes into all of what youve exposed him to so far, why wouldnt he be down for penetration?
 
tilladilla said:
Wow! I appreciate all the feedback and support in this thread. It's getting late here or I'd reply to everyone and explain some things. I have a small update though. We were masturbating together, and I showed him a 3d animated video of a giant wolfman having sex with a woman. I then started to find more realistic ones, and subscribed to a patreon of an artist that makes 3d animations of zoo stuff. I told him. Then when I told him that there was some good stuff, he asked to see some and specifically requested "Ahem, a pet video if you don't mind". He is usually into monster men, but him being interested in the dog videos really excited me even more. I think in the next few weeks, I'll show him a real video.
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few weeks? im betting he is wishing youd show him something yesterday! lol
 
zyklona7 said:
if he cared about her, im thinking hed probably enjoy helping fulfill a fantasy. i know nothing though.
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It all depends on the person and the fantasy. I'm no therapist or couples counselor, though I'm willing to bet most guys wouldn't be down to help their girlfriend fulfill a fantasy like that. Maybe he would but doesn't want to disrespect her. Maybe he's not 100% sure. Maybe he needs time to think. Who knows? It could make the relationship better or it could make it worse. That's why honesty and communication are key to sustaining a healthy relationship
 
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