I was young when it first happened.

A glance here, a look there. Why was I feeling strange things while looking at dogs and horses? At the time, with no reference, I thought it was 'normal'. I would come to find out, society would see it as anything but.

It was when we had our first computer that I first discovered zoo porn. The old BeastForum had so much. It quite literally changed my life, to know that I wasn't alone in my struggle, to know that there were others out there just like me, to know a mating like this was even POSSIBLE. So much changed that day.

I realized I had been a Zoo my entire life.

Playing as an animal as a child, always watching Disney films with animals in them, preferring the companionship of even a stuffed animal over a human sometimes. A part of me always leaned towards the 'wild'.

But to know that somewhere out there, there were others like me, like this, that I wasn't a freak... it changed my life.

There was guilt. Oh, there was guilt. I felt guilty every day of my life once I found out how people truly felt about those who are like us. It was so natural to me I never considered the other side until I read responses for myself.

I even tried to kill myself over it, how guilty I felt that I looked at animals in such a 'disgusting' way. Having such hate for myself for something I couldn't change for a while ruined my life. I had an abusive childhood, a whole lot more going on that made me depressed, but it didn't make things any easier to come out to myself as an 'animal fucker' and even though I knew for years I denied.

This is why I want to explain why this community is important to me.

More to come in Part 2, explaining WHY I am a zoo and WHY I am proud to be one.
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    Long awaited part 2 :) I knew I was zoo from a very young age. Maybe itw as mistreatment, maybe...

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I also remember beastforum fondly. Hell that was back with dual up when I first took a peek. While I'm not sure what I myself would be considered, as a male not attracted to any animal but I do very much enjoy and get turned on by watching human females and male animals engage. Probably falls more into the watching female accept whatever member was delivered to them. But I have always tried to support and encourage anyone who lives the life whether female or male. I have a male friend who is into it, but he knows I will speak with him on the subject with no judgement, I just only want to watch if a girl is involved.
I ramble too much.
No matter how weird a person thinks themselves to be, I guarantee someone else shares it with you and more still are even weirder. Say no to normal my friends.
Interesting and inspiring! In many instances females are able to 'connect' more deeply to spiritual things (and sex is VERY spiritual) than most males are. It's the basic nature of the magnificent Yin life-force. Don't discount or lose focus on your inner strength!
Wow, I felt this way more than I thought I would. The internal struggle to come to grips with your sexuality hit really close to home.
What you have wrote so far is very good and I would love to hear more
Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry that you attempted to end your life. Guilt is a choice. You don't have to feel guilty, nor should you. You're harming neither yourself or anyone else so long as the sex between you and your non-human partners is consensual.
I happy for you
I read this with interest your story , and i know that your life experience is shared by some .
But i have an entirely different one i started or rather became a bestiality doggie girl much younger , in part by accident the one thing in the best part of 20 years as an active K9 girl i have never felt is guilt of any kind .
You're not alone and nothing you think is abnormal. Stay perfect the way you are.