I was young when it first happened.

A glance here, a look there. Why was I feeling strange things while looking at dogs and horses? At the time, with no reference, I thought it was 'normal'. I would come to find out, society would see it as anything but.

It was when we had our first computer that I first discovered zoo porn. The old BeastForum had so much. It quite literally changed my life, to know that I wasn't alone in my struggle, to know that there were others out there just like me, to know a mating like this was even POSSIBLE. So much changed that day.

I realized I had been a Zoo my entire life.

Playing as an animal as a child, always watching Disney films with animals in them, preferring the companionship of even a stuffed animal over a human sometimes. A part of me always leaned towards the 'wild'.

But to know that somewhere out there, there were others like me, like this, that I wasn't a freak... it changed my life.

There was guilt. Oh, there was guilt. I felt guilty every day of my life once I found out how people truly felt about those who are like us. It was so natural to me I never considered the other side until I read responses for myself.

I even tried to kill myself over it, how guilty I felt that I looked at animals in such a 'disgusting' way. Having such hate for myself for something I couldn't change for a while ruined my life. I had an abusive childhood, a whole lot more going on that made me depressed, but it didn't make things any easier to come out to myself as an 'animal fucker' and even though I knew for years I denied.

This is why I want to explain why this community is important to me.

More to come in Part 2, explaining WHY I am a zoo and WHY I am proud to be one.
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    Long awaited part 2 :) I knew I was zoo from a very young age. Maybe itw as mistreatment, maybe...

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Very touching and informative. Thank you for sharing your journey.
A very touching and intimate story. Thank you for your honesty and may you receive all you wish for on your journey.
Thank you for sharing your experience.
Good to see that you find you find something you really love! I hope that the depression has gone away. Like the fact that you really love it, and are proud of it!
Thank you so much! It's still here sadly but I'm doing much better these days now that I've accepted myself for who I am and realize it's something that makes me me.
This is very good indeed. Your story is helping me along my zoo journey. May I wish good luck and much pleasure for the future
Thank you so much for your words I'm so glad I'm helping you feel better about yourself. Please let me know if I can help you at all.
New here was on bf for years just found this site. Good article.
I could read the emotion right of the page. Must've been drastic to live your life with guilt. There are others and you don't have to suffer guilt ever again. Celebrate your life as a zoo and BE proud of it.
Thanks for sharing, would love to hear more
I hope i ever met a petlust gf i would marry her instant hihi