You think mating has become addicting for me? Is that why I see it as an all encompassing thing? As a silver bullet to any kind of emotional issue that may arise in everyday life?You'd know better than anyone could tell you, but you're probably not a zoo if you're only doing this just because the opportunity was there. You should go towards what makes you happy instead of distracting yourself with things that you might regret later on. Guilt and regret is a common issue zoos can have; there are a lot of posts about it on ZV. Not judging, as long as there isn't abuse involved, there's nothing wrong with what you're doing if you can honestly say that it doesn't make you unhappy.
It depends on the person. Lots of zoos have their first sexual experience with a person, but end up preferring to be with an animal anyway. The things that decide someone's sexuality is pretty complicated tbh.
Oh ya, I've thought a lot about how I ended up being the way I am to try and make sense of myself. Maybe there doesn't need to be a reason why? I can't say I know what it's like to be in your shoes, I'm happy being zoo. You'll know what makes you happy, work towards it.
Because I see it as a massive emotional comfort. And obviously a physical one too.
You think my mating with her is an emotional distraction?