I felt pretty much the same way. I learned that I did not accept that part of myself and did not know if it was acceptable at all to be attracted to animals. I read a lot about it online, and there was a faction that said animals cannot consent and thus it is allways rape. That did not help. But there was another side, a loving, cooperative side. And through my interactions with dogs, I have learned first hand that anyone who thinks a dog cannot express their wishes, approval or disapproval has not had contact with dogs for more than a few minutes. Through this I came to accept myself, my feelings and desires. I learned that feelings are never wrong, but a need that is not being met, or just something our mind and
body are trying to tell us.
This was a process for me and now I have no negative feelings about my Zeta desires and that has taken a lot of weight off my shoulders.