I just realized that it was something I was born with and that I couldn't just make it "go away," so it was pointless of me to hate myself for it and beat myself up (figuratively) over it. I also tried to get help for it, through therapy, and that was one of the worst moments of my entire life, I had never hated myself more, I actively had thought of self-harm because society told me that there was something wrong with me and I should feel ashamed of who I was, regardless of if I was born that way. After I accepted it, I had never felt happier in my life, I stopped being depressed, I stopped drinking as much, and I no longer have any thoughts of self-harm. It was the best choice I had ever made.