Moments of guilt? Ups and downs?

knottymelbourne said:
Hi everyone

Just wondering if anyone else goes through moments of guilt about their fetish? I have moments where I feel really down that I do this behind my partners back, that looking at animal porn is wrong, that Im taking advantage of our dog, it seems to go through varying degrees. Im even sometimes convinced that after I have moments where I am really into it and being really naughty I then have periods of really bad luck, like something bad happens and the universe is punishing me. Which I know is silly, but then I have thoughts of like, is it really?

And then I kind of try to stop, which lasts a week, two, tops, and then Im so horny and so turned on that I take major risks like pretending to go to the kitchen in the middle of the night for a glass of water just so I can let our dog lick me for a few seconds. And I feel so turned on 24/7 and free for a while, and then will have another time where I am guilty again.

Covid lock downs seem to affect it as well. Being home all the time now I am SO turned on I just want to spread my legs for our boy and I want to share it openly with my husband to stop the guilt from setting in but I am so scared, yet horny.

It's just a constant up and down of wanting it, wanting acceptance, to being ashamed, to trying to ignore it, to then being so turned on I cant think of anything else and can not control it.

Sometimes I think I am going crazy
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Hanna(InZooWeLove) said:
You are not alone it's true. Each time i was with a dog it felt wrong but so hot too, i have been excited before it and deep down in mood after but still couldn't help but imagined next time. Felt so dirty and naughty, but somehow loved it. Ups and downs are regular. I'd say if you take a good care of your dog and provide him what he now needs - in terms of human love, then you are doing a good thing. Right?
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I think I have finally come to turns . Like poster said I would try to stay away but my desires always brought me back. It was like a bad role coaster ride
 
For a lot a zoos like myself its not a fetish its a sexual orientation, like being attracted to any certain type of human being. The guilt, if you really study it closely, is often from socially instilled viewpoints about non human species, the ideas that we are raised with such as they are separate from us. They are dirty. They are lesser beings and by having sexual relations with them you are degrading yourself, making yourself less human. That it's "just wrong" or "bad" and by doing it you're wrong and bad. Bad human, bad! lol Its such bs. Society's norms and the laws and "ethics" around being zoo is mostly based around the damage that zoosadists have caused and the rest is all just nebulous, illogical kneejerk emotional reactions by uneducated, judgemental, biased, bigoted people who just follow social norms like the sheep that they are (no offense intended to sheep or their lovers😉). When we zoos realize all of that is total bs, and we begin to live our lives on our own terms rather than being led like the 🐑, then we are able to live authentically within our own lives, comfortable in our own skin, knowing we are not "wrong" for who we love. As long as it's consensual.
 
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When I was in a relationship with a woman I felt guilty because I couldn't satisfy her. My male dogs took care of my needs, not leaving room for another person in my sexual life. I made her suffer unnecessarily. That's the only guilt or regret I have regarding my zoo life. More than guilt, what I think the
most about is how much better my life would have been if I was "normal", with wife and kids...
 
I always feel guilty at the amount of sex I have. Im a true "pansexual" which a term people really need to stop using . Im attracted to male female trans and zoo. I used to think it was normal to be fine with sex with many different people but for a lot its strange. Bisexual is a nice term but it doesn't include zoo. I could go on It's impossible for me to be faithful. I have yet to be in a stationary relationship. I have left orgies guilty, like after eating a big meal and feeling tired. But I always get hungry again...

I just do my thing in the shadows and keep it moving...
 
When I first started mating animals, it was pure horny need, I would be so overwhelmingly horny, being the age I was, that I couldn't control my lust, and would end up raping a poor ewe. That was always followed by a deep sense of guilt and regret. This was long before the internet, so I thought I was the only person in the world that did this.
As I grew up, I learnt to control myself a bit better, but would still have moments of weakness, where I would end up taking a ewe or heifer for my own gratification. Even now I am filled with regret and remorse for my behaviour, not for the zooness of it, but for the forcefull raping that I inflicted on these harmless, lovely creatures.
These days I am very active with various loves, but there is a major difference in that I dont force my lovers to do anything they dont want to do, if they want to make love, we make love if they dont we dont, and I dont have an ounce of guilt or self loathing for living this way. I just wish I knew as a kid what I know now, but I guess that is why there is a term "young and stupid "
 
I’ve felt the same I’ve the past 25 years... up and downs, stepping away from BF for months at a time and then coming back... I’ve reconciled what it is that draws me in, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel bad about myself...
 
AmyHunter said:
I’m glad to see that I’m not alone with feelings of guilt. Haven’t done anything yet, but just being curious about It and joining this site, makes me feel really guilty sometimes. Being raised to be a good Catholic girl doesn’t help lol
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Your good. Don’t fell guilty.
 
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