I have had sexual feelings toward animals since I hit puberty. I had sexual feelings toward animals first off, and started to gain a sexual interest in human females later in my teen years. After having experience with a human female I find it is not for me. Yes I love her, but I cannot even keep a hard on enough to have sex with her. I get hard when playing with her pussy, but soon as I stick it in, my rock band turns into easy listening almost instantly.
I have never felt any gilt over my attractions to animals and I have never felt like I did not fit in. With that said, I guess the reason is that I have never cared what anyone thinks of me. I have never had the desire to tell those around me about my animal attractions. Never figured it was anyone else's business. My friends didn't care if I had a GF or BF or anything else.
I guess maybe part of it when I was growing up was that I hung out with girls as much as I hung out with guys so probably a lot of people figured I was banging a few of the girls just because I hung out with them. Probably another reason was due to the type of people I hung out with.
The people I hung with were outcasts to begin with. Were all were. And I think were were all outcasts because of the fact that none of us cared what the rest of the kids thought of us. We were not nerds, we were not jocks, not hicks, not red necks, not rockers, not rappers. We just made our own paths. One week we would spend our lunch playing D&D or a variant, and the next week we would be romping in the mid in my 4X4, the following week we would be hanging out in the metals shop burning through welding rod.
We got picked on by every other group (well the nerds left us alone), but we hit back just as hard as we got hit.
Some would say I have ended up not caring what others think about me due to who I hung out with growing up, but I already had that personality which is why I hung out with them.
Anyone who has read my posts knows that I do care about certain things, like I have tried to figure out what I can do to entice zoos to want to come here and help out on my farm long term. But that is not so much caring what people think of me, that is caring about what I can do to make a better offer to get people here.
I recently also posted that I would like to be able to be a furry but cannot because I cannot role play and am not outgoing enough. And maybe that is why I am not outgoing. Maybe I am not outgoing because I just don't care enough about what other people think of me (either good or bad) to go out there make myself known.
Though this has been kind of a run on answer, the OP did say they wanted detail. I think this is pretty detail into what I think has lead to my complete answer.
And that answer for me is that, no, I would not change the fact that I am zoo. I am completely happy having sexual attractions to animals. I do not feel that there is anything wrong with it. I have no problems keeping it to myself and not outing myself to my friends even though I think most of them know and they have readily made comments that they don't even care if someone "fucks animals". But I have no desire to make my friends aware of my sexual preferences.
That said of course, is when talking about the friends I grew up with. Most of my current day friends are zoo themselves.
So yea, I am zoo, I am happy being zoo. I have always been happy being zoo. And I do not have any desire to change.
I'd love to be intimate with our dog together with my human partner, but yeah, plenty of threads about that already. But no, I wouldnt change myself.
