I was 12 when I decided to mess with the bitch we had. I did not know particulars but I was feeling her up and trying to determine if I could fit and if so which way I was supposed to enter her. I knew where to enter but not how as I did not know at the time which way to her vagina. After a bit, she got tired of it all and wanted away so I let her be and went and took care of myself. I didn't mess with her anymore after talking to a couple of people and finding out she would have been too small and possibly would have hurt her. After that I would see various animals I would fantasize about but never took the chance out of fear of being caught and whipped half to death. And as an adult, it's been fear of rejection from people and or getting busted. But I have always pursued finding like-minded and have a few times, but things never worked out for me to be an active participant. And women I dated would not admit to wanting or like something like this for them either. This is the first group I have found that is outright open to what this site is for. Exactly what I have been looking for.