animal mating

Animal mating videos on youtube became my very first porn experience because of how easily accessible they are. I was aroused by them because I didn't know any better. I still watch animals mating and wonder if I'm a pervert because of it. I am not attracted to animals themselves in any way, I...

My first time was when I was 11. My girl cat was in heat a lot and she loved to lick my cock. She constantly begged me to fuck her but she was way too small for me to fit. A couple years later I started getting into dogs and now I'm here.

So, as title says, is there anyone else who just experiments a lot of anxiety, stomachaches or just a general feeling of uneasiness minutes/hours ago before they know they'll be having sex with an animal? For me, since I do a whole lot of preparation before (prob like 3-5 hours before the act...