Wishing I could feel safe telling someone

[secretpup98]

Just wanted to get some stuff off my chest

I've had "zooey" feelings ever since I was a kid, but I only recently got to talk about it for the first time with a sex therapist (who told me about this forum and was very accepting).
This forum is a great resource, but I wish I could feel safe sharing this part of myself with partners. I don't even write about it in my journal because I'm terrified of someone reading it, even after I'm dead.
I was talking to my nesting partner recently and we got on the topic of sex and kinks - specifically things we personally wouldn't be into doing. I playfully asked "What's the wildest thing I could be into that you'd still be down for?" to test the waters and the answer was along the lines of "I mean, as long as you don't want to fuck a horse or something".

Just so weird that I've learned to accept myself so much through sex therapy, but I can't feel safe sharing this core part of me...

 

[DuskLuck]

From what I've seen, the two main struggles with being a zoo is self acceptance and finding others that are the same, or at the very least, accepting of it.

My best advice is to find some friends here, and eventually you may find someone to share this life with. It will take a while though.

I finally met a fellow zoo for the first time this year after being a part of the online community for over a decade. Definitely worth it though!

(Feel free to send a PM my way if you'd like to chat sometime.)

 

[nekdoneco123]

hardly seems worth it unless you wish for a partner that's into it or something.

just telling someone might put you and your animals in danger. most ppl will just tell you they find it and/or you disgusting. i've been there.

 

[FireFour404]

Perhaps I may use this thread to share my thoughts and vent out frustrations. I don't do this much at all, so apologies in advance if anyone finds this disruptive; but I would appreciate if anyone could leave me some friendly advice or words of encouragement too!

Most of the time I feel like I'd remain eternally unhappy and alone. It is very difficult for me to maintain long-lasting relationships because it pains me to keep secrets from people I really care about -- most especially ones I would feel intimate with. Showing any slight hint of interest to zoophilia poses an extreme risk of losing friendships, or worse: having people actively trying to get you down.

A "normal" person would suggest undergoing therapy, but I am not exactly sure if it is what I would really want. I have ZERO idea about what happens in there and also do not have the resources to afford consistently getting it. I also do not feel like removing or disabling this part of myself.
Granted though, that I am mainly just "zoo-curious" and prefer just observing rather than participating -- basically I do not plan to partake in beastiality IRL, moreso that I enjoy it in fantasy/fictional situations.

Being passionate about such fictional artwork (featuring animals/ferals or other fictional creatures) all while wanting to maintain wholesome friendships can cause a lot of conflicting thoughts and emotions for me... And most of the time I just end up suppressing the truth, and that's where the difficult part comes in. It makes me feel like I'm not being authentic with everyone I interact with... that I have to put up a mask on just so I can keep having friends.

But that being said, I suppose there is not really much of a choice but to keep this as a secret, unless the friend is surely to be supportive/into it. I just need to learn to be more accepting of this and myself.

 

[JustAGSDEnjoyer]

basically I do not plan to partake in beastiality IRL, moreso that I enjoy it in fantasy/fictional situations.

I think that might actually be a way to be more open about it; framing it as being interested in the *fictional* aspect of it, rather than with real animals, will probably be met with less resistance from people, in particular if they themselves are into "fringe" communities. But I doubt you can ever fully negate the risk involved.