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Tourist
Me and my husband have been married for two years now. We’ve known each other for 5. I never told him about my zoo sexuality and I figured he’s not into it at all. We’ve shared some of our kinks, mainly that I’m into fisting and w/s and he’s into the latter.
This weekend we took a trip with my mother-in-law to Florida and while at a restaurant with my husband sitting across the table from me & my in-law next to me, he asked to see the photos I had taken that day. He scrolled past them and ran across a video that I had saved from here and forgot to put in a hidden folder.
I never like him using my phone because I feel like it’s full of porn even though I’m pretty good at hiding it, so while he was browsing, I got up and said I need to use the bathroom and to give me my phone. On the screen was a video of a man having sex with a dog. As he gave the phone back to me he whispered “now I know what you never wanted me to find on your phone”.
I darted into the bathroom and had a panic attack in one of the stalls.
After all this, he told me while we were walking around that everything is okay but we need to have a serious conversation so that I can clear some things up and some stuff needs to be established. We won’t have a chance to talk in private until Tuesday.
I’m MORTIFIED and scared. It doesn’t seem like he is divorcing me or that things have turned sour but I can’t help but to feel like a seal has been broken and the way he sees me now has changed. I’m so scared of him asking me if I’ve fooled around with our dog or telling me that I can’t. I mean, I have messed around with him but I don’t want him to think I’m fucking our dog each time he sees me cuddle him.
How can I prepare for this conversation that will take place at some point? What do I tell him? How in depth do I get about it?
This weekend we took a trip with my mother-in-law to Florida and while at a restaurant with my husband sitting across the table from me & my in-law next to me, he asked to see the photos I had taken that day. He scrolled past them and ran across a video that I had saved from here and forgot to put in a hidden folder.
I never like him using my phone because I feel like it’s full of porn even though I’m pretty good at hiding it, so while he was browsing, I got up and said I need to use the bathroom and to give me my phone. On the screen was a video of a man having sex with a dog. As he gave the phone back to me he whispered “now I know what you never wanted me to find on your phone”.
I darted into the bathroom and had a panic attack in one of the stalls.
After all this, he told me while we were walking around that everything is okay but we need to have a serious conversation so that I can clear some things up and some stuff needs to be established. We won’t have a chance to talk in private until Tuesday.
I’m MORTIFIED and scared. It doesn’t seem like he is divorcing me or that things have turned sour but I can’t help but to feel like a seal has been broken and the way he sees me now has changed. I’m so scared of him asking me if I’ve fooled around with our dog or telling me that I can’t. I mean, I have messed around with him but I don’t want him to think I’m fucking our dog each time he sees me cuddle him.
How can I prepare for this conversation that will take place at some point? What do I tell him? How in depth do I get about it?