Nightheart1
Tourist
I'm a young adult. I've started liking animals, specifically dogs when I was exposed to animal porn around 12? I'd say being a zoophile is my deepest secret, I've only told my best friend/ ex partner about it and it was a very hard thing for me to do but overall went okay. I've put it off for so many years but it's been coming up the past 2 years as I've explored myself more. I'm also a furry, so in the fandom they have always told me zoophila is bad. I think for me it's more of a fantasy aspect. But I want my career to be working with animals because I genuinely love them. I feel like I'm a bad person, like how pedophiles get jobs in teaching. I saw one of my murals shaming zoophiles and I got so angry that I wrote zoophile smut. Afterwards I felt grossed out by it, and I'm shaking writing this. I have a therapist but there's no way I would tell her. I don't know if I'd be able to get my job if I told her. I could possibly go to a sex therapist but is it a reason for concern?