i've had this dilemma for a long time now. The thought of "coming out" to anyone scares the hell out of me, i have a hard time trusting and opening up to people and if i was outed my life would be over. But i can't shake the feeling that i'm alone, that i have no one to relate to, and express a major part of myself around. I have never even met anyone that i thought might be zoo. I'm envious of zoos that have other zoos in their life, when i hear of zoos with other zoo friends it kinda makes me depressed because i know its possible, it just hasn't happened for me yet. I just hope i don't go through my whole without meeting someone else like me, it seems possible but at the same time impossible. The thought of hanging out with another zoo seems so surreal. So if you feel the same way let me know how you cope, or if you have zoo friends in your life let me know how you met them.
Let me just say hello. You can call me Beta. I'm somewhat new here too...
There is a bunch of community members, as you have seen on your thread, that feel the same as you. Possibly reach out to the people who have commented here???
I struggled with that same feelings you have now.... Now, I know I do not have the worst life ever, I realize everyday now how much i actually had the best..
But I let it tear me down bit by bit..
My husband is a zoo so I'm fortunate to have him and my pup. However, I struggled with who I was and accepting myself. My family has no idea. friends, no clue. Best friends. Nada.
One moment after having a rough day and my sister just continuously preaching to me about how prayer works etc... It came out of my mouth like word vomit. "I ain't going to act like I'm religious and I pray to your god" "your god would be repulsed by what I am and so would you. "
Of course, so caught off guard she was froze in place looking at me...
I got close so no-one could hear just to ask her if she remembered a story that my mom had told us about my aunt who masterbated her male dogs whenever they get aroused just to "release some stress". She said she did. So, I continued with "okay, good. Bc I do stuff like that with Aisland. He is initimate with me and I with him.
My sister was very quiet at first, had a few basic questions like how? When?
She became more exact with her questions, mostly I think bc shes known Aisland, since he was a pup lol We sat and spoke for what felt like hours. We laughed, cried, and then laughed some more mostly bc it was awkward speaking anything kink or sexual with my sister...
After it all she said she wished I would of been honest with her with who I am and not been so hard on myself.. And that she knew that Aisland and I were very close. More close then any dog and human she's ever known but wouldn't have guess that.
Made ME feel better by telling her and made me proud to be who I am behind closed doors lol I like that I took a risk and told her for me... However, it wasn't anymore than that for her besides being there for me lol within all the concerns and questions, No judgement. No disgust. Or misunderstandings. Which is the best outcome.
So if you believe, it is mentally needed. And you have friends or family to come out to, and your comfortable with them, do it. Go for it. For you.
However, be careful on who you choose to come out to, of course.
Anyone on this thread needing a friend. Feel free to msg me or another community member RickRimes
We try to reply to everyone that msgs. And be there for like minded friends around the world.