goodboy_brazil
Tourist
For context, I'm happily married to a human man. I consider myself demisexual for humans, i.e. I feel zero attraction to people I have not formed a close emotional bond with. This doesn't happen with dogs though - I find myself regularly checking out the neighborhood dogs. It's gotten to a point where I'm having wet dreams about dogs (I didn't even have wet dreams as a teenager). However, there is simply no way for me to have a canine partner in addition to my husband - both because it will take years until I've reached a point in my life where I can care for a large dog, and because even if hubby knew and approved of my desires (he kinda knows but would never agree with them), it's just unethical to adopt a dog with the main intent of trying to get him to fuck me in the future. I don't even think I'd be able to have a healthy sexual life with a canine partner if I lived alone, since I mostly see all animals I care for as my kids. I stopped watching videos and consuming anything related to bestiality, but it seems I just can't stop feeling attracted to dogs. I feel like I'm forcing myself back in the closet - this is the same heartbreak and anxiety I remember feeling as a teen who had to hide his sexuality. But, unlike being gay or bi, being out as a zoo is just something that I'll never be able to do in my lifetime, and even hook ups or dates are probably not an option in my area. How do you cope with this repression and stop feeling pent-up and frustrated? I just don't want to spend my whole life fantasizing and dreaming about getting fucked by dogs. I want to be able to accept that it will probably never happen and move on