FillMeUp69
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Sorry this will be a long one
I remember one day around 4ish years ago that I was super bored and wanted to watch some porn but was super bored by what I usually watched. Very randomly I decided to search for dog and human porn. It certainly got the job done but I felt such a sinking feeling of regret after doing it. I was so ashamed and embarrassed of myself.
However a few months later, I came back to it again. I didn't know why I came back but I did. I got off again and it felt good but was again followed up by guilt and regret. For around 3 years this was what I did, immediately feeling horrible after everything.
Over the last year though it's really hot an all time high. For starters, I started seeking it out more often, finding exactly what got me off most. Then I started talking to zoophiles who convinced me to join here and ZC. But every time I get off I still feel horrific and like a failure.
I'm very confused about how much I like animals. Most days I don't have any super strong connection to animals (like no romantic or sexual feelings or anything). But some days I find I don't want humans, I want a dog instead. It's been such a confusing time for a good while now and I'm really struggling.
I've talked to a few people before and they told me it sounds like I am a zoophile. That also really scares me though.
If I'm just getting off to these videos, I would like to stop myself and get away because I don't feel good watching them. However it's not going to be easy.
Just kinda looking for advice honestly. You can ask me any questions you want under here. If you'd rather PM I'm good with that too
I remember one day around 4ish years ago that I was super bored and wanted to watch some porn but was super bored by what I usually watched. Very randomly I decided to search for dog and human porn. It certainly got the job done but I felt such a sinking feeling of regret after doing it. I was so ashamed and embarrassed of myself.
However a few months later, I came back to it again. I didn't know why I came back but I did. I got off again and it felt good but was again followed up by guilt and regret. For around 3 years this was what I did, immediately feeling horrible after everything.
Over the last year though it's really hot an all time high. For starters, I started seeking it out more often, finding exactly what got me off most. Then I started talking to zoophiles who convinced me to join here and ZC. But every time I get off I still feel horrific and like a failure.
I'm very confused about how much I like animals. Most days I don't have any super strong connection to animals (like no romantic or sexual feelings or anything). But some days I find I don't want humans, I want a dog instead. It's been such a confusing time for a good while now and I'm really struggling.
I've talked to a few people before and they told me it sounds like I am a zoophile. That also really scares me though.
If I'm just getting off to these videos, I would like to stop myself and get away because I don't feel good watching them. However it's not going to be easy.
Just kinda looking for advice honestly. You can ask me any questions you want under here. If you'd rather PM I'm good with that too