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Heyy, again (28 MtF)

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Polkizzz

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Whelp, I joined a while back, lurked, then started talking, then decided this lifestyle wasn't for me, so I decided to leave.

And now here I am back again, feel like that says a bit.

Basic rundown: I am a 28 year old Pan-poly-disaster-trans-lesbian, and probably a zoogirl to add to that now. Still figuring out that last part (and the trans part too lol).

Honestly I am pretty chill and very open-minded, and I am not the judgmental type. In fact, if anything, lurking here is what started to open me up to the idea of being a zoophile (Still trying to figure out if that is a good thing or not for me personally).

I am here to talk, explore, and all the other good stuff. Also if you couldn't already tell I am figuring out a lot of stuff about myself rn so bear with me on that front!
 
Well I would be happy to chat with you some more and I hope you feel welcome here and can find where you belong
 
Polkizzz said:
Whelp, I joined a while back, lurked, then started talking, then decided this lifestyle wasn't for me, so I decided to leave.

And now here I am back again, feel like that says a bit.

Basic rundown: I am a 28 year old Pan-poly-disaster-trans-lesbian, and probably a zoogirl to add to that now. Still figuring out that last part (and the trans part too lol).

Honestly I am pretty chill and very open-minded, and I am not the judgmental type. In fact, if anything, lurking here is what started to open me up to the idea of being a zoophile (Still trying to figure out if that is a good thing or not for me personally).

I am here to talk, explore, and all the other good stuff. Also if you couldn't already tell I am figuring out a lot of stuff about myself rn so bear with me on that front!
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I'm always open to chat :3
 
Polkizzz said:
Whelp, I joined a while back, lurked, then started talking, then decided this lifestyle wasn't for me, so I decided to leave.

And now here I am back again, feel like that says a bit.

Basic rundown: I am a 28 year old Pan-poly-disaster-trans-lesbian, and probably a zoogirl to add to that now. Still figuring out that last part (and the trans part too lol).

Honestly I am pretty chill and very open-minded, and I am not the judgmental type. In fact, if anything, lurking here is what started to open me up to the idea of being a zoophile (Still trying to figure out if that is a good thing or not for me personally).

I am here to talk, explore, and all the other good stuff. Also if you couldn't already tell I am figuring out a lot of stuff about myself rn so bear with me on that front!
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Hey and welcome to the community ? most of us are very accepting and won't judge you either and many will help to guide you along your journey! Take your time to figure things out for yourself ?
 
Knutshack said:
Hey and welcome to the community ? most of us are very accepting and won't judge you either and many will help to guide you along your journey! Take your time to figure things out for yourself ?
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Yeah I def realized that the first time, really feel like its my internal sense of self and shame because of the larger social and legal taboo/ramifications that made me feel bad more than anything else. Our minds can be wild at times haha
 
exvampire said:
this is definitely understandable, i felt/ feel the same at times but try approaching it in a way that makes YOU comfortable, at your own pace, shame can feel like such an overwhelming dark cloud but remember this is your life and your interests etc.. society doesn’t have to live your life, you do.
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Definitely, I've kind of realized now that this part of me just won't go away, and trying to ignore it will just make things worse, so yeah its a slow process of accepting it and becoming comfortable with it (I think I am getting there)
 
Hey again, again!

It's always tough trying to figure things out about yourself. Especially things that are 'bad' or different, it's difficult coming to terms with certain aspects of who we are and who we thought we would be etc.
But!
As we grow we continue to figure stuff out, small things and big. And sometimes it's difficult to figure those things out alone.

I hope that by being here you're able to pinpoint exactly where this whole zooey thing fits into who you are and your life, how you want to approach it, and how to be happy and content with the choices you make going forwards.

And of course I hope that along the way you become more sure about other aspects of yourself, whether it's gender, lifestyle, or even your favourite colour.

You got this, disaster or not :gsd_happysmile:
 
exvampire said:
yes exactly! you’ll get there & when you inevitably do you’ll feel so much lighter :3
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yeah its kind of funny how much 'lighter' I felt when I was here last time, then got guilty and tried suppressing it and getting rid of everything, only to cycle back

reminds me of the guilt I felt everytime I discovered I was turned on by a new depraved kink over the years (especially going from hentai bestiality to irl zoophilia lmaoo)
 
GingerUnicorn said:
Hey again, again!

It's always tough trying to figure things out about yourself. Especially things that are 'bad' or different, it's difficult coming to terms with certain aspects of who we are and who we thought we would be etc.
But!
As we grow we continue to figure stuff out, small things and big. And sometimes it's difficult to figure those things out alone.

I hope that by being here you're able to pinpoint exactly where this whole zooey thing fits into who you are and your life, how you want to approach it, and how to be happy and content with the choices you make going forwards.

And of course I hope that along the way you become more sure about other aspects of yourself, whether it's gender, lifestyle, or even your favourite colour.

You got this, disaster or not :gsd_happysmile:
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Everything you said is absolutely true, trying to figure these things out alone is really tough, hell it took me having an increasingly queer/trans friend circle to make me start figuring out my gender and then a significant other to become more curious about my zooier side,

tyty, I am trying my best, despite how much of a disaster I am :gsd_love:
 
Polkizzz said:
Whelp, I joined a while back, lurked, then started talking, then decided this lifestyle wasn't for me, so I decided to leave.

And now here I am back again, feel like that says a bit.

Basic rundown: I am a 28 year old Pan-poly-disaster-trans-lesbian, and probably a zoogirl to add to that now. Still figuring out that last part (and the trans part too lol).

Honestly I am pretty chill and very open-minded, and I am not the judgmental type. In fact, if anything, lurking here is what started to open me up to the idea of being a zoophile (Still trying to figure out if that is a good thing or not for me personally).

I am here to talk, explore, and all the other good stuff. Also if you couldn't already tell I am figuring out a lot of stuff about myself rn so bear with me on that front!
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hey there, im also another trans girl, i would love to chat if u want
 
k9man lover said:
Hey there I'd love to hear more about the temptations that brought you back.
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oh yeah no problem, honestly it is kind of like how you describe it, the temptations

back when I decided this lifestyle wasn't for me I deleted my collection/profiles and put it all away, for a bit

but then I would just randomly start thinking about it, and would have dreams about it, which would lead me to want to look at it again, and of course all of this aroused me immensely

at this point I recognized that this probably wasn't going to go away, since I have been in this cycle before with other kinks of mine, so I figured maybe trying to slowly embrace it and come back might help
 
k9man lover said:
This sounds all too familiar. I can’t count how many times I've deleted my collections of pics and videos only to go looking for them again. What’s even worse I've thrown out a whole lot of sex toys for the same reason only to go out and buy them again.

Lesson learned. Let us embrace ourselves when even if no one else will.
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omg yesss haha, its actually so painful having to go through now and refind all the stuff I deleted, I even busted my unlimited data cap a few days ago downloading stuff like the dumb horny bitch I can be LOL

definitely feels better embracing my zooier side as opposed to suppressing it, even though I understood that months ago
 
k9man lover said:
It is a good feeling. This is my first time embracing it lol makes me want to get high and roll around naked in the grass with dogs jumping all over me.
I'm coming to the conclusion that I'll always want kinky and taboo sex it's just a mater of finding people I can be open to about it.
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Yeah I understand you completely, when I opened up to my ex about this side of me (who ironically was the one who got me curious about zoo considering our shared love of beast hentai), he was ok with it, and even supported me saying if it made me happy that I should embrace it

that was a while back like last year, but I still think about it alot, especially now lmao
 
k9man lover said:
It comes and goes for me. Sometimes I go so far down the rabbit hole of pleasure that I don't know how I ever get back.
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lmao I know about that proverbial hole, I am quietly hoping that I have finally reached that point of no return so I can stop feeling guilty and ashamed and just embrace it (getting there slowly but I am p sure it is inevitable at this point)
 
k9man lover said:
I love your energy about this, you’re giving good vibes?
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Yeah, this really reminds me of the gender dysphoria I've been going through for the past year, where I've realized I am so much happier identifying as a woman versus what I physically still am as a man, and if I could I would love to reroll my birth gender

Identifying as a woman has also helped me embrace my pansexuality, which also helps me understand that extends to animals as well, because I am just really open minded like that haha
 
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