ThatRandomSapphire
Tourist
Hello everyone 
A little bit of context for this post. I'm a sapphic woman on my twenties. I've never been in an active relationship with any of my babies, for a lot of reasons. The closest I ever had to a lover was "A", my childhood pony. All my longterm relationships were exclusively with women. I had sex with men as a way to "fullfil some needs", without any real emotions.
But here's the pivot point. A few years ago, when I really started to dig into who I was, what I felt, I understood that the discomfort I felt in my relationships what in parts due to them being humans. I've always had a hard time understanding my peers, probably due to autism. But with this new light, maybe it wasn't the only factory at play.
I am fiancee with a women, it's been 2 years. But . . . I really feel like this relationship has an expiration date, especially since she is a fervent anti-zoo (oh, the irony), and I'm a bit lost. Also, due to me being in France, being a Z-exclusive is nearly impossible unless if I was an hermit.
Do you have some tips to spare for someone Lost in her feeling ? How did you understand fully who you are ?
Looking at the dichotomia between "Z-Exclusive" and "Fetish" makes me wonder if a middle ground exists ?
Sorry for the long text, I hope you have a lovely week !
Much Love
N.B : Sorry if typos and mistakes are in my post, I may be bilingual, English is still not my mother tongue
A little bit of context for this post. I'm a sapphic woman on my twenties. I've never been in an active relationship with any of my babies, for a lot of reasons. The closest I ever had to a lover was "A", my childhood pony. All my longterm relationships were exclusively with women. I had sex with men as a way to "fullfil some needs", without any real emotions.
But here's the pivot point. A few years ago, when I really started to dig into who I was, what I felt, I understood that the discomfort I felt in my relationships what in parts due to them being humans. I've always had a hard time understanding my peers, probably due to autism. But with this new light, maybe it wasn't the only factory at play.
I am fiancee with a women, it's been 2 years. But . . . I really feel like this relationship has an expiration date, especially since she is a fervent anti-zoo (oh, the irony), and I'm a bit lost. Also, due to me being in France, being a Z-exclusive is nearly impossible unless if I was an hermit.
Do you have some tips to spare for someone Lost in her feeling ? How did you understand fully who you are ?
Looking at the dichotomia between "Z-Exclusive" and "Fetish" makes me wonder if a middle ground exists ?
Sorry for the long text, I hope you have a lovely week !
Much Love
N.B : Sorry if typos and mistakes are in my post, I may be bilingual, English is still not my mother tongue
