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Tourist
Ugh. Twitter is the worst. It’s the easiest place I can find likeminded zoo-people as I can just pick up my phone and open the app, but then there’s just... so many antis. It’s depressing to go through that much hatred. I‘ve only posted like a few messages here, and I’m pretty much just keeping to myself, but lately I’ve felt stronger and stronger about my attraction to dogs. It used to be random, I’d jerk off maybe once a month to some zoo porn, but now it’s becoming almost a daily thing.
I’ve recently got engaged to the most wonderful man I’ve ever met. He’s American. I’m half-american, so moving to the US from Finland is something I’ve always wanted to do and now I’m about to, in about a month. Recently he said that he wants to get a dog. A big one, like a labrador or a golden retriever. When he said this, I remembered one time when we were still getting to know each other, he was pushing me to tell him about my kinks. I’m very shy about my sexuality, so it took a lot of convincing from him to get me to tell. I remember he even said “it can be anything baby, even animals!”. I brushed it off cause I’m so so so deep in the closet about this. In the end I told him about the fisting and pissing stuff I like. But even though he mentioned animals, I couldn’t tell him. And now I can’t stop thinking about it.
Did he mean it, or was it a means to get me to feel more comfortable? I’m so confused and I wish we could share zoo together. That’s like.. the last secret I have from him. We got engaged last month, and he is the first person I’ve ever felt this strongly about. And I’m so scared cause I want him to know but I also don’t want to ruin this.
To be frank, I’d be much easier not living with my sexuality towards animals.......
I’ve recently got engaged to the most wonderful man I’ve ever met. He’s American. I’m half-american, so moving to the US from Finland is something I’ve always wanted to do and now I’m about to, in about a month. Recently he said that he wants to get a dog. A big one, like a labrador or a golden retriever. When he said this, I remembered one time when we were still getting to know each other, he was pushing me to tell him about my kinks. I’m very shy about my sexuality, so it took a lot of convincing from him to get me to tell. I remember he even said “it can be anything baby, even animals!”. I brushed it off cause I’m so so so deep in the closet about this. In the end I told him about the fisting and pissing stuff I like. But even though he mentioned animals, I couldn’t tell him. And now I can’t stop thinking about it.
Did he mean it, or was it a means to get me to feel more comfortable? I’m so confused and I wish we could share zoo together. That’s like.. the last secret I have from him. We got engaged last month, and he is the first person I’ve ever felt this strongly about. And I’m so scared cause I want him to know but I also don’t want to ruin this.
To be frank, I’d be much easier not living with my sexuality towards animals.......