companions_seeker
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My ex and I split up the day after last Christmas. It got messy.
During our relationship I confided in her (she's also a therapist) about how a severely depressive lonely drunken Christmas eve after my divorce, I sucked my dog's dick to find some kind of companionship. She was repulsed by this share and told me to never speak of it again. I will also add that I have only had that one experience with an animal but am finding it hard to ever trust a human partner again.
So after we split, she called my mom and everyone who would listen to her to tell them my secret confession. My mom let me know she found it "disgusting, but I still love you", which somehow feels worse, and I have lost a lot of contacts. I haven't had a dog in nearly 6 years but have been planning for when I could get another one until now.
I'm not sharing this for sympathy but now I find myself either never owning a pet to retain some dignity with my family and kids or scrapping my life and starting over in another state or country (not happy with American government right now).
I genuinely feel like this is just who I am but I'm made to feel sick for it. Anyone else go through anything similar? What did you end up doing about it?
During our relationship I confided in her (she's also a therapist) about how a severely depressive lonely drunken Christmas eve after my divorce, I sucked my dog's dick to find some kind of companionship. She was repulsed by this share and told me to never speak of it again. I will also add that I have only had that one experience with an animal but am finding it hard to ever trust a human partner again.
So after we split, she called my mom and everyone who would listen to her to tell them my secret confession. My mom let me know she found it "disgusting, but I still love you", which somehow feels worse, and I have lost a lot of contacts. I haven't had a dog in nearly 6 years but have been planning for when I could get another one until now.
I'm not sharing this for sympathy but now I find myself either never owning a pet to retain some dignity with my family and kids or scrapping my life and starting over in another state or country (not happy with American government right now).
I genuinely feel like this is just who I am but I'm made to feel sick for it. Anyone else go through anything similar? What did you end up doing about it?