MypupandI69
Citizen of Zooville
I wish I could find the right words to describe what it was like having her there to comfort me in my darkest hours. I guess it was an overwhelming sense of everything is going to be fine no matter how difficult things became. She was my light in a stressful time when I was alone and depressed and constantly getting buried with work I always had her to look forward to. If it weren't for her I probably would have gone off the deep end 4 years ago and she would have frozen to death in the cold heart of winter. On November the 11th 2018 I brought her home and she had been happy ever since. But over the last couple of months she started having problems with mobility and I knew that it was a matter of time before she was going to pass but I couldn't make myself put her down. Just recently we went camping and it was that Wednesday morning after we got back that she up and disappeared. I don't know why she left because in the 4 years that we had been together she had never ran off or if she did she would stay close to home. So the only thing I can think of is she knew that I couldn't watch her go and she left to keep me from seeing her lifeless body. But that's just a theory I guess I will never really know why she left. But I had a dream about her the other night I saw her standing in a well maintained field gently cresting over a hill. I remember there was a light breeze and there were small wild flowers everywhere and it was either sunrise or sunset. She couldn't have been more than two years old but I didn't know her when she was that young. She stood about ten feet in front of me the sun behind her but strangely not burning my eyes. She looked happy and seemed to say to me I'll wait for you boy come to me when you can. Then I woke up more confused than anything because when I had that dream she was still alive not in great shape but alive none the less. I miss her but I don't want her back at least not in the same condition that she left in. But I'm a better person now because of her than I was before and whatever happens next I'll be ready. Words can't describe what it's like losing what I had with her and there is no doubt in my mind that she loved me and I her despite our mistakes and flaws.