If you DO come out publicly, you have to take more extreme safeguards than usual to make sure that no legal persecution could be made against you. Remember that every gap in your blinds is a gap that people can see through as they pass by: even if they cannot see much detail standing in one place, scrolling by reveals a large amount of detail, enough to guess what is going on. Also, walls are much thinner than you think. NEVER let anybody make a video of you making love to an animal, period, not for any reason. It would also be a good idea to try to make sure that you have as little animal porn on your computer as humanly possible, and I would even try to keep the furry art restricted to vanilla or clean material, none of that MAP-looking stuff that the creators get away with by claiming they are "small adults." If you are going to come out publicly, then great, but being otherwise as "white as snow" is probably a good idea. I wouldn't even suggest smoking pot unless it's legal where you live, then rarely. Anything that can be used against you must go. Stay employed, and keep up unbelievably good relations with your supervisors. Consider yourself under intense pressure to be a model citizen.
But really, that pressure to be a model citizen can only be good for you. It does the same thing for gay men: ones that come out publicly find that they are under pressure to be excellent, but that ultimately makes their lives a lot better. It's stressful in the short-term but ultimately benefits them. Because they have been on the air A-game every day for years, they have excellent financial health, no substance use disorders, healthy diets, clean homes, and generally good lives. The things you have to do in order to be seen as a good citizen are mostly just soundly advised behavior, anyway.
I applaud what you are doing, but the way that you pull it off is to acknowledge that pulling it off and doing it well puts you under pressure to walk a finer line than you otherwise would. Don't be afraid to walk that fine line. You cannot really hurt yourself by working harder than most people to try to be an excellent person and to live a clean, honest life. The fact that you've stuck your neck out only means you have no other choice.
It might seem easier, in the short-term, to not have to go to all that trouble, but wide is that gate that leads you to self-injury; the gate that leads you to improving your quality of life is narrow. If you put yourself in a position where you have no choice except to be more vigilant, then that is a good habit to have. You will be more vigilant about paying your debts, and you will also be more risk-averse about taking on new debts. You will be less likely to take risks at work or leave tasks unfinished, which will please your supervisor. Coming under greater scrutiny might put you under more serious pressure to be perfect every day, but that pressure can serve you in a positive way if you let it. If you avoid that scrutiny just so that you can be more lax in the short-term, then that eventually catches up with you. In your life, you will watch coworkers come and go, and you will notice that the ones that stay are ones that are open about the weird details of their lives; those that have relatively little personality will never linger.
Those that will never need to know you for very long might judge you over superficial things, but those that have to work with you for decades of your life, on an everyday basis, will judge you by your fruits. A bad tree cannot bear good fruit, and those that have known you for many years will eventually come to understand this. In the eyes of people that are really worth something to you, money talks, and bullshit walks. Be worth something to those people, and any peripheral details about you will not be significant.
If it is possible for you, then the honest life is really worth it.
