I totally agree with you. I live in a third world country where risks are high. I am an open minded person and I agree the facts and reality it doesn't matter if it's about my character. Afterall I got vaccinated I didn't want to take any risk. I will tell you why I gone stupid.
So in my country i have been neglected and treated badly for being who I am, what i wear, what are my choices. I have been treated badly by my families from childhood and I was beaten everyday. Sometimes there were rotten skin marks or nail scratch marks on my legs or face and neck. Maybe that created an impact on my brain for which i might had been acting weird and I used to be harassed and beaten in school by teachers and schoolmates. For which I used to feel I am not worth enough to talk with females so I kept distance and slowly it was extremely hard for me to talk two words to any females. It wasn't that I never tried to talk or came near to them, when i did they used to neglect me or treat me differently. I could sense that won't accept me. When I grew older the harassment continues and the treatment like a shit. Maybe there is something wrong with me for which this constantly continues. What one thing I had noticed people used to hate my choices a lot and treated me badly when they came to know about that. I forgot to mention my family always kept as poor, i was give torn clothes to wear, had only 1-3 good clothes to wear, gave barely any money to me,i was given only rice dal potato for food whereas they had everything, sometimes i was abused for being hungry and asking for food. My mother was to tell lies about me to teachers and everyone to make a scene i am a maiac. Like during the parents meeting she used to say "I try everything for him he never studies,he wakes up late, never follows our instructions to study,never listen to our words" whereas in reality it was just the opposite. I used to ask them all those and they used to beat me for that.
Now coming back to the point of my choices. I love the culture of modern countries and try to dress like them. Like I saw one documentary about Germany in nat geo how fashionable that country is. They travel anywhere with bicycles even wearing suit. That catched my attention I used to take my bicycle anywhere even to official work to meet some friends and I loved it, I saw how fast,easy, cheap this mode of transportation is. But in the real world I was slowly being considered as a beggar. I even heard my friend's father said to his wife " he is a son of a beggar". I never dress like Indians too. During the 00's I became fond of the hip hop so I used to wear big shirts like them and guess what i am a weirdo who has no sense. Now I am more into male female mixture clothing style. As I see it suits me well and I am not showcasing any slutty stuffs. But in reality i am being considered as a pervert,gay, sexual predator, disgusting person. In my 29 years I never had a real friend, all were just in the name nor a girlfriend as I told you why because i got considered into something Which i am not. Even I heard some directly from females. So obviously I never had sex.But on 2017 a guy from Europe contacted me saying he loves my dressing style and now I only consider him as my family, he mostly know each and every steps of mine. I am a human too there will be a sexual hunger. And when I see a female intentionally showing there private parts by tight fitted clothes whereas when I dress normal I am being said slut,gay,pervert my anger against the human females slowly increases. And now it must be too much as it has been a lot of years. It is not only about the clothing there are lots of things that I see females say bad things about males whereas they can do those openly in public as they feel so. My sister hated me from the very beginning she always wanted to throw me out of the house from childhood. And it went at such a extend now that I somehow managed to gather some money and i really had to leave house. I have been living in a hostel now for 3 months with the help from the European guy. So naturally I became more attracted to animals. As I saw I can Trust an animal but I can never trust a human even if that person is from family. And if the animal kill or eat you, it is there natural wild habitat. But not for humans. I saw the dog was willing and my urge was high because of all these and I forgot about the risks. I will write a post what actually happened later. (Nothing was forceful with the dog infact the dog was forceful)