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Feeling of guilt

lanieQ

lanieQ

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I'll be honest. I often do. I think because of the world we live in, and the niggling fear that I am doing something wrong. I can often rationalize things, how we as humans do far, far worse to our animal companions and the fact that I enjoy pleasuring them is pretty low on the offense spectrum, but still it is ingrained in me to feel shame over something I've tried to change over and over.

If you had a choice would you not be a zoo? Sometimes I think I might. If it was a simple switch I would choose to be "normal"-- whatever that is. But I guess I really have no choice in this matter so I try to accept myself more. Some days are easier than others.
 
It took me a very long time, many years, to be able to 100% accept who I am. For some people it doesn't take too long, others never accept it. \

The best I could say is that we can be well aware of the "language" our animals speak, and can clearly understand consent and know when to stop if needed. But I'm sure you've already heard that, and it isn't as easy as hearing that and suddenly you feel better.

For a long time if I had the opportunity to be able to not be zoo anymore I would have taken it, but not anymore. I am who I am, and myself and others here know that there isn't anything wrong with that, no matter what non-zoos would think.
 
Wolfy said:
It took me a very long time, many years, to be able to 100% accept who I am. For some people it doesn't take too long, others never accept it. \

The best I could say is that we can be well aware of the "language" our animals speak, and can clearly understand consent and know when to stop if needed. But I'm sure you've already heard that, and it isn't as easy as hearing that and suddenly you feel better.

For a long time if I had the opportunity to be able to not be zoo anymore I would have taken it, but not anymore. I am who I am, and myself and others here know that there isn't anything wrong with that, no matter what non-zoos would think.
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Though I'm not happy you went through the same self-doubt I often suffer, I'm glad my thoughts aren't completely odd in this community. Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. Within the normal human world or within the zoo world because once and awhile I still have self-doubt.
 
lanieQ said:
Though I'm not happy you went through the same self-doubt I often suffer, I'm glad my thoughts aren't completely odd in this community. Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. Within the normal human world or within the zoo world because once and awhile I still have self-doubt.
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Almost all of us have in the past or currently do have doubt about all this, you are nowhere near alone.
 
I do not feel any shame or guilt about being sexually attracted to animals, because I know it is not morally wrong for a person (human) to have sex with a non-human animal. Humans are animals, and interspecies sex happens in the wild.

Also, I think that killing animals (for example, slaughter or hunting) is far worse than sex with animals (yet killing animals is legal). The current legal setup of society infuriates me.

The reason people think sex with animals is wrong is because of speciesism -- speciesism is the idea that humans are "superior" to non-humans (morally). Speciesism is a prejudice that should not be followed.

When someone has sex with an animal (such as a dog), they are not doing anything wrong (morally).

The main thing that bothers me are the laws banning sex with animals -- they get worse every year, and no one does anything to stop them. Sex with animals is viewed as "abuse", and it shouldn't be.

In terms of your self-doubt -- if you are sexually attracted to animals, there is nothing wrong with that -- you should be proud of that aspect of yourself and embrace it.
 
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I have never felt true guilt, maybe some moral conflict when I refer to my dogs as my babies and then well...you see where that icky road goes. But I don't dwell too much on that. The largest monkey on my back is the fear of inevitably. I sincerely believe one day, someone will out me and I'll have to hide for the rest of my life somewhere. Because of this fear, I avoid jobs involving any kind of publicity or political crossovers and I avoid pissing people off online incase they get salty and try to dox or blackmail me.
I am not ashamed of my interests, but I am aware of social reception to them. That's about as close to guilt I feel.
 
I haven't really been a zoophile for very long, probably a year or two currently, so I haven't fully accepted myself yet. I do feel regret and shame daily for what I like and do, and often feel like a worthless, messed up person that shouldn't exist. Pleasuring myself to the thought and sight of bestiality, thinking of sex whenever I see an animal, etc. I do often wish I could forget all of this and go back to a more "traditional" life. Perhaps it's just a phase, and given time I will come to accept who I am.
 
I did for quite a long time because I was afraid of being what society says we are: an animal rapist who can't control his perverted urges. Only after getting deeper into the scientific and ethical side of zoophilia and talking with other zoos I realized that there actually is a responsible, loving and caring side and that sharing intimacy with your non-human partner is not automatically harmful.
 
KinkLink said:
I haven't really been a zoophile for very long, probably a year or two currently, so I haven't fully accepted myself yet. I do feel regret and shame daily for what I like and do, and often feel like a worthless, messed up person that shouldn't exist. Pleasuring myself to the thought and sight of bestiality, thinking of sex whenever I see an animal, etc. I do often wish I could forget all of this and go back to a more "traditional" life. Perhaps it's just a phase, and given time I will come to accept who I am.
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Don't feel bad about being zoo -- as I said, there is nothing wrong with being sexually attracted to animals, and it is not wrong to have sex with an animal. People have been conditioned by society to think it is "wrong", and people need to "break out" of that conditioning.

The reasons society give for why it is "wrong" are not rational, especially when people eat meat without giving it a second thought (i.e. they are OK with animals being killed in slaughterhouses, something far worse than sex with animals).

If your conscience tells you that you are zoo, then you should accept and embrace that aspect of yourself. Do not feel "worthless" for being a zoo. In fact, being zoo is what makes life meaningful for a lot of zoos.
 
No, why? maaaybe if i was zoo exclusive, then i would have some doubts during a random long cold winter evening. Most of my life Ive been fucking women twice as old as me though, and yeah, that sometimes could make my thoughts go astray.. But about zoo, noo, never, no doubts even for a moment.
 
When I was younger and had to sneek around to do it I was maybe a little more uneasy about it I don't like feeling like I am lying or being deceptive. I do sometimes still wonder what my life might be like if a few things were different. But now I quite like being the way I am, living the life I do. :)
 
I would not begin to change. As far as I can remember, I was always closer with animals than with people. Animals never lie about their feelings, they will never stop loving you. Guilt? For what? Because you sincerely love your pet? For giving all of yourself to him without a trace? Never. You think we use them? Some yes. But I do not consider them a zoo. Rather, these are ordinary people who use animals as sex toys. So they should be ashamed.
 
No. - My mare backs up and then tries to plant her winking pussy into my face. Nobody can tell me she doesn't enjoy me. And besides this, she gets so much in terms of money, time, attention (whatever you wanna use as indicators of good relationsships) some people around us are envious of her and how their spouses suck in comparison. Why should I feel guilty? Because some robe-cladded clowns of the bearded-man-in-the-sky-cult say I should? That cult can't even agree on the date we have today...

lanieQ said:
If you had a choice would you not be a zoo?
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No, I don't really fully know the other world where you are "only normal". But from what I see with other people, I don't want to be part of it in terms of "this is all you get". I have spent half a life with horses now, and so far it was a very good life.
 
I’m still struggling to accept it.. after 19 years of true attraction to mainly animals. It’s incredibly hard for me to accept that part of myself. It has hindered me from indulging in my sexual desire towards them and well comes with a lot of other depressing feels.. I’m working on moving past All the guilt, because I know there’s nothing really wrong with me. However society has a all the guilt, because I know there’s nothing really wrong with me. However society has us pinpointed As deviant and a bunch of other things that just don’t make sense.
 
I've never felt guilty so much. I think that's because never once has a dog been hurt. If one was to be hurt as a result of what I do, then yes definitely. As far as shame goes, I'd be a liar if j didn't feel a bit of shame on my very first time simply because I couldn't except I just had a fantastic orgasm brought in by my friends dog. Even though she did it,to a point, first, she didn't go as far as I did. It took a couple days but in all reality I was perfectly ok with it.
 
I have struggled with guilt in the past. Several times, I've tried to deny that I'm excited when I watch a women doing it with a dog. Then someday I've realized that my "inclination" don't harm anyone, except the ideas of some bigots that have no place to dictate me what I should feel.

So, if it can be of some help for lanieQ or anyone else: I don't think you're doing anything wrong. What matters is not the species of your partner(s). As long as they are willing, that you don't harm them in any way, and that you're taking good care of theirs needs if they're not humans, there is no reason to be ashamed, remorseful or even embarrassed. But it's only my opinion, of course.
 
Oh my. It is so nice to have found this place. Keeping my love of zoo bottled up inside has been hard. To be able to open up and not have to be ashamed, and to have others to talk to about it is a life opening experience.

And yes, I have fought with the guilt a lot in the past. I remember my first foray into the zoo world. It was about ten years ago I think. And it was Bilara and her dog Toro. I instantly fell in love. Did I feel guilty afterwards. Oh yes. I would down load a bunch of stuff and then delete it out of guilt for watching it. I would tell myself, no more zoo for me. LOL. That would last a few weeks at the most. And then I would be pissed off for deleting what I had. And then I would have to go on the hunt for more in order to get my "fix".

However. Over the last year or so, I have stopped feeling guilty. I have finally admitted to myself the I love zoo. What can I say, it turns me on so much.

But as @bugler77 said, I too have many vaired kinks I am into. But zoo is the one that I struggled the most with. But not any more.
 
KinkLink said:
I haven't really been a zoophile for very long, probably a year or two currently, so I haven't fully accepted myself yet. I do feel regret and shame daily for what I like and do, and often feel like a worthless, messed up person that shouldn't exist. Pleasuring myself to the thought and sight of bestiality, thinking of sex whenever I see an animal, etc. I do often wish I could forget all of this and go back to a more "traditional" life. Perhaps it's just a phase, and given time I will come to accept who I am.
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Wow. You sound like me in the beginning. It can be hard to have those feelings and know that if most of society knew about it, that they would shun you and call you all kinds of hateful names. Take it slowly and let your feelings develop naturally. Trust me. You are not alone.
 
Nope. Never any guilt or self-doubt. After the first time I fondled an animal and later lost my virginity with a dog I self-reflected: how do I feel about this or myself? Answer: I feel really good, maybe a little naughty but in a sneaky, smiling-inside kinda way, I do not want to change/conform.
 
Sexuality
For me it has been a rocky road. Coming from a strict catholic family. Where there is no sex until marriage. Even being taught that I belive it rarely happens.
Let me take you back to the beginning and my thought process. When I first started having k9 sex.I really did not focus on the catholic rules.
There was a burning desire that bloomed one day. And I had no power to control it. There was no time for any thought process only to act on what I was feeling.
For what I was about to do, went far beyond just the act of sex. I believed that this was very taboo; in the eyes of most people. Even in my own eyes.
I feared persecution from family or anyone that would find out. But that would not stop me. The power of a dog wanting me was a far greater calling.
The need to connect sexually was the powers that called me. It was not that I had a low self esteem.
I felt I was a pretty woman,rational thinking, level headed young lady.I had friends and was well liked.
It was a progression of events and experimentation. I started with seeing what I could get him to do. With getting him hard and sucking him.
Getting him to cum and finding out what he liked.Completing one act deciding what was next. It all was very easy.
He was a most willing partner. Once having a taste of things he became a dominate influence over me. He mounted me and took his powerful role.
From that day forth I would never be the same.
The rocky part of all this was the guilt I was feeling. I felt that I was not normal; for wanting this. I was not normal; for acting upon this. But it felt so good.
I was powerless to stop it. I would take steps so that I would not do it again. I tried to recondition my thought process.
Putting obstacles in front of me. With the hope I would not repeat my actions. These where all guilt ridden decisions.
I even was able to go months with out any sex. Only to reconnect the act where I left off. Even at one point I was able to engross myself in work.
I did not have sex for over a year.Only to reconnect once again. My knowledge of bestiality was non-existent. I did not seek it out on the internet.
What I learned was from trial and error. I felt very alone in my actions and desires.
My eye's opened once again when I searched it on the internet. I am not alone.I was now able to share my thought's with like minded.
After having a few partner's of the k9 species. Due to there short life span. Or there untimely deaths. I now accept things.
I accept whom I have become. And the feelings associated with with this lifestyle.
 
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