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So here goes. (This is a lot for me)

Germshep12

Germshep12

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I'm reposting this here so I can get more feedback

So I'm brand new to this scene. It feels weird even posting here. I feel a little bit of exhilaration then again. Also a little bit of fear and a little bit of awkwardness,

My main goal of this post is to hear other people's stories to maybe get a little bit of validation And maybe even find somebody I can connect with on a private level about this

So here goes my really weird story,

My experiences started with my dad owning a farm you would often drag me out there in the summer to help out, but being a single dad he would often just up and leave on Friday and Saturday nights and leave me to my own devices, we had a male Tennessee walking horse, beautiful horse, this horse almost became my best friend when I was lonely, one day the horse had a hard on and this threw me for a loop. I got a little curious but I didn't do anything at the time, and the second time around I saw it I felt almost sympathetic for the horse, because I know my frustrations when I felt that way, so I decided to help the horse out, this then became almost an everyday thing, and soon spread around to other animals on the farm, I don't know if it was curiosity that started it all or loneliness or just my nature, This went on for several years until my dad sold his farm now at the age I am. I'm still having those thoughts and feelings,

With at times I feel I'm doomed to loneliness because I can't really connect with somebody on this like it's some dark little secret

Even being able to talk about this on a public place makes me feel a little bit better

I hope I don't bother you all too much

Have a good day.
 
There's a lot of people here in this forum that feel like you.

i personally know how hard is to actually find something you enjoy but at the same time be "illegal" and that you can't talk to every other people about it.

Trust this forum, keep commenting, engage with other zoo people
 
Germshep12 said:
I'm reposting this here so I can get more feedback

So I'm brand new to this scene. It feels weird even posting here. I feel a little bit of exhilaration then again. Also a little bit of fear and a little bit of awkwardness,

My main goal of this post is to hear other people's stories to maybe get a little bit of validation And maybe even find somebody I can connect with on a private level about this

So here goes my really weird story,

My experiences started with my dad owning a farm you would often drag me out there in the summer to help out, but being a single dad he would often just up and leave on Friday and Saturday nights and leave me to my own devices, we had a male Tennessee walking horse, beautiful horse, this horse almost became my best friend when I was lonely, one day the horse had a hard on and this threw me for a loop. I got a little curious but I didn't do anything at the time, and the second time around I saw it I felt almost sympathetic for the horse, because I know my frustrations when I felt that way, so I decided to help the horse out, this then became almost an everyday thing, and soon spread around to other animals on the farm, I don't know if it was curiosity that started it all or loneliness or just my nature, This went on for several years until my dad sold his farm now at the age I am. I'm still having those thoughts and feelings,

With at times I feel I'm doomed to loneliness because I can't really connect with somebody on this like it's some dark little secret

Even being able to talk about this on a public place makes me feel a little bit better

I hope I don't bother you all too much

Have a good day.
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Hi . We all went through similar situations and the only advice is be yourself, keep to yourself and be proud who you are , although not accepting by other non-zoos you have a gift and embrace it with your heart.
 
Yep, you are here and what you experienced and the new state of feelings that you have will never leave you. I suggest you learn to simply embrace those thoughts as it is who you are now. Trying to suppress or change won't work from my experience ( I've tried many times) .

You now have to decide do you take action on those feelings or simply accept them and yank it to zoo porn to help with the itch.
 
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