Remembering my girl

[thisismyblackestblack]

I’m not sure if this is the right place but I joined today after having been lurking for a while now, and I wanted to share that I’ve been thinking about my previous partner Blondie. I got her when she was 6mo old and lived with her until she was about 9yo until She died about 7-8 years ago. I’ve been thinking about her again recently and thinking about her has made the last couple weeks feel very heavy and overwhelming and I’ve been shedding quite a few tears and it’s hard writing this out now without breaking down… I just wanted to say that I miss you Blondie and I’m grateful for the many years we spent together and that I still think about you and you will forever have a place in my heart

 

[K_9River_rat]

Someone sent me this just recently in response to my recent loss...

Made me cry like a baby..

the thing about grief,
and the strangest of things --
it curls on your chest like a dog made of wings.

you taught me to stay
to be gentle with pain;
your head on my chest was my heartbeat's refrain

if love has a leash
that can reach through the dark,
just tug once for yes, and I'll follow that spark

I whisper your name
and the night whispers back --
a warm little weight in the spaces I lack

 

[thisismyblackestblack]

Thank you, it’s been a long time since she died and I’ve recently been finally considering finding a new partner after many years of avoiding having a non-human relationship of any kind so maybe I’ll find a partner that I can show every bit of love and care I showed Blondie, and hopefully if I get a new partner, my potential new partner and I can build a confident and healthy relationship with each other and it not be surrounded by fear, depression, anger, anxiety and loss