Newbie- Curious and feeling conflicted

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I've been very curious about this since I was a teen and pushed it back as years went by. Now in my late 20's the curiosity came back and a big part of me finally wants to go forward but another part of me feels conflicted. In the sense of wondering if this is wrong to be/feel this way and so on. I just want to know if anyone has any advice as I feel at a crossroad again. Thanks!
 
I guess the best way to put it is feeling like this is okay and I can try to go through with it but then flips to this is wrong and don't ever think of it again.
 
What is ok though? Do you want to have sex with an animal or is it about watching porn and so on?
 
I would say to both. Like I've seen porn of it but afterwards feel a little shame from it. But it's also knowing it's fine to watch and then struggling with trying to get my mind wrapped around wanting to try the sex aspect. I'm sorry for not giving clearer thoughts, not too sure how to put the feelings to words and I'm also I'm a bit nervous.
 
Several thread are discussing this type of problem:

Dealing with shame

Hey. I created this account a few years ago but haven’t been on because of shame and fear of being found out. Tonight I couldn’t take it anymore and came on here. As the name implies I love horses both mares and stallions. I’ve never done anything irl. I’m at a very low point and wanted to hear...
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Also search for guilt.

What helped me was writing it all down from beginning to end. It lets you organize your thoughts and return to them to rethink and re-evaluate.
 
I appreciate this so much and just thank you for reaching out. I'll take your advice and I'll definitely look at the thread.
 
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Welcome. This is the perfect place to express your thoughts and feelings with some degree of anonymity. It’s difficult to come to terms with a sexuality that is considered very unacceptable in society. We’re all in the same boat so feel free to express your feelings, or maybe even your desires here 😉
 
dubious12 said:
Welcome. This is the perfect place to express your thoughts and feelings with some degree of anonymity. It’s difficult to come to terms with a sexuality that is considered very unacceptable in society. We’re all in the same boat so feel free to express your feelings, or maybe even your desires here 😉
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Thank you so much! I appreciate the positivity from this site. I have been looking at other threads to feel more comfortable and confident and can say so far I feel a bit more at ease.
 
beardedwonder said:
I hear ya bud... not an easy thing to get our heads around, right?
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Very much so, but I think it'll approach it the same way when coming to terms with my sexuality/gender. One step at a time. Also, thanks for the reach out, I very much appreciate it. How have you come to terms with it?
 
Beanie said:
Very much so, but I think it'll approach it the same way when coming to terms with my sexuality/gender. One step at a time. Also, thanks for the reach out, I very much appreciate it. How have you come to terms with it?
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TBH... I'm still working on it :) Like you, I am often conflicted after watching a video or two... or eight :p
 
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