I keep having the same thought over and over of me at like 2 am, taking the train and going where theres a bunch of horses who live near eachother, just so i can find a male horse and give him a blowjob... i feel really guilty about these thoughts, especially since i dont know anyone who's into animals, so i ask here, is it like really bad i keep thinking of it? I feel like i could just end up actually doing it one day