Anyone else had a zoo partner in the past and is struggling with not having one anymore ?

[neon21]

All my life ive been quite lucky in regards to getting to live out my zoo fantasy. Already in my childhood years i got introduced by a girl from my neighboor to the zoo lifestyle and when i got older i dated a girl for more than 3 years who enjoyed doing petplay and eventually got her in to zoo activities with my dog. However this the releationship ended a while ago and since then ive been struggling getting into the normal dating life again. Ive had other girlfriends who ive had a great time and chemistry with but i keep finding myself missing the good old days, where i could live out my beast fantasies with my partner. Im 29 now and even though i try to come terms with that i probably wont find anyone with similar interests soon its still bothers me at times. Is there anyone with similar experiences and how did you manage to get over the fact that it will probably take a while or maybe even never again to find new and suitable partner