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fawndoll

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i wasn't necessarily born zoophilic, but developed the attraction after years of grooming, specifically being forced to engage in acts with animals by men.

because of this, i feel really guilty about my attraction, especially with the things people say about zoos. Im trying so hard to accept myself, but it feels impossible.. has anyone struggled like this?
 
This is a place to find others with similar experiences or feelings and talk about them. You're very welcome here.
 
You're 18 and you've had forced sexual encounters?

Sounds like you need to be talking to a qualified mental health professional, not a random internet forum.
 
Assuming this was before being 18.

I haven't had a forced interaction. But I've had an attraction when younger, and finding others online to chat with and looking more into the lifestyle helped me with guilt. Some of it also involved being with a real dog. My first one so for me it helped set it in stone.

You'll always see talks about people downing zoophilia.
 
saddlebum66 said:
Agreed....If it isnt a BS story, It would be a surprise....No one goes thru that til age 18, and comes out smiling and ready to share.
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sorry! im not really excited or anything, im moreso trying to look for a means to accept myself, and didn't know where else to turn. ive been struggling with this for so so long & was just trying to see if anyone else could relate or provide guidance.

im in therapy and on medication but it's hard for me to bring up.

dartel said:
You're 18 and you've had forced sexual encounters?

Sounds like you need to be talking to a qualified mental health professional, not a random internet forum.
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I am, but the issue is that forcing has lead to an attraction now. I don't know if it's something that'll go away or not, so I came here for support.
 
Being forced, it's not your fault. You didn't ask for it or want it. Up to now, you have no guilt or shame or blame. I know it's easy to say that and harder to feel it, but it's the simple truth.
What you do from now on, is your choice. (I am assuming...hoping.. you are now safe from those people). You need to make a concentrated effort to stay away from people who might drag you back in. In fact, stay away from all people as best you can, simply because you're probably been conditioned into a ready made victim and you and the predators are going to be drawn together, and you'll get sucked back into bad situations. You'll need time to settle and mature where you can handle humanity again.
As for animals, you need to be very cautious. You didn't come by it naturally, you've been conditioned into a sexual response. It's going to be connected to the trauma and guilt you carry with you, in addition to the stigma and judgement that everyone goes through. Stay away from the porn. Stay away from the horndogs on here.
Bottom line, this is basically a forum advocating for sex with animals, not against. But many people here have been through the wringer of depression and guilt, some have been found out and lost relationships with friends and family, so you may find some support or at least company there. You'll also find porn, stories, and encouragement to further your experiences with animals, which may be bad for you....
 
Being here for support is somewhat like filling a Dirigible with Hydrogen, rather than Helium....its simply a matter of time before it explodes in your face.

If force and coercion are issues,you've come to the right place....you'll end up with more of those than you can stand. I WISH you luck, but this is no place to look for help. Even the well-meaning here have ulterior motives. If your therapist knows youre here, you need a new therapist. If you haven't shared this with your therapist, do so. It's another symptom, not a cure.
 
One if you were actually forced that act was criminal in all context of it. Two if you don’t wish it again come to terms and let it go. Three if you find yourself enjoying it come to terms that all though it wasn’t your choice and you wouldn’t have chose it you enjoy it. Be honest with yourself accept yourself. For good or bad you can not alter the past but you can choose your future. You have will find the strength to go forward how YOU CHOOSE!!
 
fawndoll said:
i wasn't necessarily born zoophilic, but developed the attraction after years of grooming, specifically being forced to engage in acts with animals by men.

because of this, i feel really guilty about my attraction, especially with the things people say about zoos. Im trying so hard to accept myself, but it feels impossible.. has anyone struggled like this?
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Not everyone here has a good bedside manner, so you will get some rather blunt and brash responses, but I sorta of went through something similar to you, as far as guilt goes. Just be patient, accept your feelings, don't listen to what others say about it (unless positive), and embrace it until you are worry free.

Welcome to the site, as well.
 
It is probably more about who has forced you thatn the attaction to the animals. If and when you can get your head clear and accept that this was no your fault then if the attraction to animals is still there and it is something that you enjoy then there is nothign wrong with having a pet as your companion. So many girls who have been abused often actually find peace with their pet as they dont judge like people do.
 
I didn’t mean to sound rude. What ever happened in your past weather you had control of it or not, you have to come to what ever terms you can and look to your future. You if you try have the will, fortitude within you to do so. You have to look forward however you find the will within yourself to do so is YOU!!! I wish you nothing but the best be strong!!!
 
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