Thinking back to my first - mixed bag

erphy

erphy

Citizen of Zooville
First off my history being attracted to animals, mostly dogs started when I was a teen. Mostly just admiring female dogs and daydreaming as it was kinda pre-internet porn days. I'd go through periods of weird thoughts like why did I just jerk off thinking about a dog or stopping myself from staring at a gorgeous dog somewhere while someone was trying to talk to me.

I just deleted a bunch of stuff here because I remembered just now this is public and have to be careful. Anyway , fastforward to my first experience some time ago. My GSD girl was on her 2nd heat and 1.5ish years old. We've always enjoyed licking , and I liked rubbing on her cookie and stuff like that. Being her 2nd heat I figured she was old enough to experiment more and this time I decided to start some fingering and light penetration with my member. She was digging it and so was I, she laid on the couch relaxed with her legs spread staring into my eyes. Probably not the best position knowing what I know now about anatomy but it was working. I was half way in with a few pumps and started trembling and erupted into her. It was great but also, at the same time i was feeling disgust at myself. Thinking how wrong it was for what I just did. Afterwards the post-nut clarity had me thinking that I'm f'd up in the head, and how can I do this to my lovely girl (even though she was digging it and could have left any time). I completely punished myself and did not touch her again. She wound up getting spayed because I didn't have a good excuse not to with my wife at the time nor was I trying hard to find a good one due to the emotional struggle going on in my head. I now know I'm an idiot because she would have kept being an amazing lover and sexual partner. She was still the best girl ever and led a great life with me!

I read so many first times as being the most amazing thing ever, but for me it was a mixed bag. A lot of time has passed and I have come to terms for my feelings and attractions to dogs and I no longer feel that way. Am I alone or have others had this mixed-bag reaction to their first time?
 
not entirely on topic, but isn't it odd how one usually feels like they need an excuse to not gut a dog?

don't ever feel disgusted over doing something mutually enjoyed.... are "we" fucked in the head? of course "we" are. so what?
 
erphy said:
First off my history being attracted to animals, mostly dogs started when I was a teen. Mostly just admiring female dogs and daydreaming as it was kinda pre-internet porn days. I'd go through periods of weird thoughts like why did I just jerk off thinking about a dog or stopping myself from staring at a gorgeous dog somewhere while someone was trying to talk to me.

I just deleted a bunch of stuff here because I remembered just now this is public and have to be careful. Anyway , fastforward to my first experience some time ago. My GSD girl was on her 2nd heat and 1.5ish years old. We've always enjoyed licking , and I liked rubbing on her cookie and stuff like that. Being her 2nd heat I figured she was old enough to experiment more and this time I decided to start some fingering and light penetration with my member. She was digging it and so was I, she laid on the couch relaxed with her legs spread staring into my eyes. Probably not the best position knowing what I know now about anatomy but it was working. I was half way in with a few pumps and started trembling and erupted into her. It was great but also, at the same time i was feeling disgust at myself. Thinking how wrong it was for what I just did. Afterwards the post-nut clarity had me thinking that I'm f'd up in the head, and how can I do this to my lovely girl (even though she was digging it and could have left any time). I completely punished myself and did not touch her again. She wound up getting spayed because I didn't have a good excuse not to with my wife at the time nor was I trying hard to find a good one due to the emotional struggle going on in my head. I now know I'm an idiot because she would have kept being an amazing lover and sexual partner. She was still the best girl ever and led a great life with me!

I read so many first times as being the most amazing thing ever, but for me it was a mixed bag. A lot of time has passed and I have come to terms for my feelings and attractions to dogs and I no longer feel that way. Am I alone or have others had this mixed-bag reaction to their first time?
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takes time to un do all the brain washing of society if one was unfortunate enough to grow up in society so called.
 
erphy said:
First off my history being attracted to animals, mostly dogs started when I was a teen. Mostly just admiring female dogs and daydreaming as it was kinda pre-internet porn days. I'd go through periods of weird thoughts like why did I just jerk off thinking about a dog or stopping myself from staring at a gorgeous dog somewhere while someone was trying to talk to me.

I just deleted a bunch of stuff here because I remembered just now this is public and have to be careful. Anyway , fastforward to my first experience some time ago. My GSD girl was on her 2nd heat and 1.5ish years old. We've always enjoyed licking , and I liked rubbing on her cookie and stuff like that. Being her 2nd heat I figured she was old enough to experiment more and this time I decided to start some fingering and light penetration with my member. She was digging it and so was I, she laid on the couch relaxed with her legs spread staring into my eyes. Probably not the best position knowing what I know now about anatomy but it was working. I was half way in with a few pumps and started trembling and erupted into her. It was great but also, at the same time i was feeling disgust at myself. Thinking how wrong it was for what I just did. Afterwards the post-nut clarity had me thinking that I'm f'd up in the head, and how can I do this to my lovely girl (even though she was digging it and could have left any time). I completely punished myself and did not touch her again. She wound up getting spayed because I didn't have a good excuse not to with my wife at the time nor was I trying hard to find a good one due to the emotional struggle going on in my head. I now know I'm an idiot because she would have kept being an amazing lover and sexual partner. She was still the best girl ever and led a great life with me!

I read so many first times as being the most amazing thing ever, but for me it was a mixed bag. A lot of time has passed and I have come to terms for my feelings and attractions to dogs and I no longer feel that way. Am I alone or have others had this mixed-bag reaction to their first time?
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I guess I’m just as fucked up as you are, friend, and that is just fine. Like you, I had many thoughts way early on surrounding dogs, and why exactly they appealed to me as much as they did. After a lot of repression, and knowing an EXTREMELY open minded partner, and many years of work trying to rid myself of those feelings, I am just now starting to actually embrace some of these feelings, instead of burying them. So in that way, you and I are similar, as I’m sure many of us are. The society norms of where dogs fit into our lives don’t apply to us, and because of that, we cannot allow that shit to try to sway our minds, especially when we are trying to enjoy some mutual time with our girls.

I gotta say, just in thinking of the moment of actual penetration, I have had many thoughts and wonders as to how that will go, probably similar to you. I’m sure that I will not be immune to those irrational thoughts about how wrong it is and others. But if our girls are into it, then who are we to deny them? As I’m sliding in that first time, even if I do only last about four seconds in her, I don’t want it to be spoiled by some garbage imprinted on me by society. I only want it to be for us, and that’s really how it should be with any one of us here. It should be about the moment between the two of you, and nothing else should matter, post nut or otherwise.

You and I have discussed some of this previously, but in all seriousness, I genuinely hope you and your current girl get to experience some of the things together that you might not have gotten to experience before, and with as little feelings of guilt as possible. There are a lot of us here, most of us very successful folks in society, and would probably come as quite a surprise to many that behind closed doors, we make love to our girl dogs. It’s not a big deal. It’s been going on for centuries, and if she’s loving it, there’s no need to stop or feel wrong about it.
 
erphy said:
I read so many first times as being the most amazing thing ever, but for me it was a mixed bag.
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I think the reason for this is that over time our brain sort of minimizes the negative aspects of things and we primarily remember only the good things. Also... on a sex forum a lot of people have a tendency to mix reality with fantasy when they are writing something... so it ends up resulting in posts that make it seem like its 1000% a good experience and that there wasn't a single thing that wasn't perfect.
Of course you also have people who are just lying and are typing out their fantasy while they are whacking it.
A bit of healthy skepticism is always warranted on forums... especially sex focused forums.
 
I did with my first and I questioned a lot after she passed. I've come to the conclusion that nothing mattered more to me than my girl and her being happy and that's it. Standards and ethics are important but society isn't always right. That bit wasn't hard for say figuring out what rules and standards to live by after committing to this lifestyle was the difficult bit.
 
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