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When did you accept that you liked bestiality?

I think it's hard to pass through the guilt feeling ngl sometimes I still feel guilty when I do sexual things with my beloved dogs Like I regret after feeling like I'm a weird person
 
I first started to be into it as a teenager, looking at the porn that was shared as 'super fucked up' but I just genuinely enjoyed, including some stuff I regret loving so much in retrospect (that old anal eel porn vid back in the early 00s).

Took until I was in my 20s to realise that it's something that is not just a jerk off fantasy, but a real sexual attraction in real life. But I struggled with the ethics for a long time.

Now I'm in my early 30s and have finally just, come to accept this is what I am. And I'm finally taking steps to actually do something about it!
 
I'd like to say I never thought about "I like bestiality".
When I was very young, like when you discover things for the first time and have urges but nowhere, no one to satisfy them. Well, we had a dog, big dog. So, I looked at him one day, I touched him another day, jerked him off a bit another... To me there was nothing to "accept". The problem was knowing that 99.9999% would disapprove, chastise, disown me. However, internally, I didn't find a problem.

I have a hypothesis. Didn't know how to introduce it into a discussion, didn't want to get too heavy, but here we are. I believe having an internal conflict and feeling shame or weird will most likely come from ingrained emotional reactions and cultural taboos, shaped by religious and societal programming, rather than rational considerations. I've never been religious at all, and my ethics are reasoned not "given". I believe religious people or those that come from very conservative families are most likely to feel awkward, that they are doing something wrong or an abomination🙄and would have a hard time coming to "accept" they like bestiality.

Would you agree? Does your own experience match a more religious/harder time to accept vs. less or not religious/easier to accept?
 
cl0ud said:
Did you ever have feelings of guilt for being into it? How did you get over those feelings and come to accept that you're into it? Curious about hearing peoples stories, as it took me a long time to be comfortable with the fact that I'm into it. I do still have some pangs of guilt, but I dunno, I feel it's not worth worrying about something that you cannot change.
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I was 16 😅
 
Knotty.Brat said:
Tbh even after actually mating a few times with my dog at that time, there was still guilt, I wouldn't say it was a quick process but eventually I was able to accept myself, today I've been active for about 10 years and I couldn't be more at peace with myself. :)
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the process of acceptance is very difficult, but when you accept yourself you feel light as a feather
 
It kinda just happened, I was growing up and got curious quite a few times. But seeing how the world is about it, I’ve kept it to myself. Almost gaslighted myself against it! But I’m here now.
 
still in the process of finding out and accepting how much of it i like or what aspects i like and am here for that reason and for curiosity
 
About 5 years ago. When I started in my early teens with it was very lonely as I had friends but couldn't tell anyone what I did with the family dog. I couldn't help self it felt so natural. I spent my early 20s not very active and trying not to watch zoo porn. Then I was looking after a mare and dabbled again but it was about 10 years ago owning horses and spending time with them it again I started. As I reached out and made friends it on here i became more comfortable with with it.
 
cl0ud said:
Did you ever have feelings of guilt for being into it? How did you get over those feelings and come to accept that you're into it? Curious about hearing peoples stories, as it took me a long time to be comfortable with the fact that I'm into it. I do still have some pangs of guilt, but I dunno, I feel it's not worth worrying about something that you cannot change.
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Odd way to put it but it was the moment I had sex with him and I no longer felt that "guilt" after. I was on and off for about a few months of trying it, feeling mortified and doing everything I could to get it off my mind. Eventually came a night I couldnt sleep, I had to responsibility to do the next day and he was up. Somewhere in that night he started humping the pillow in his doggy bed, I got hypnotized and thing eventually led up to having sex that night. It was a few hour experience and I only realized it because the sun started to come up. I just laid there with him, waiting for that feeling to take over, but it never it. Instead, all that washed over was a calm peace.
 
Sorta still struggling with it sometimes. My job allows pets in the store and ill catch myself staring between a dogs legs every so often and will wonder what the hells wrong with me but I'm getting to a point that im understanding its just the way i am
 
Our bull mastiff tried to mount me, and I had already seen corn at the time and looked it up. I got curious and let him mount me, over and over and over and over again. I was 12 😬
 
When I first found it I didn’t feel anything, I thought the taboo around it similar to how people don’t like foot fetishes, and didn’t know until later people felt so strongly about it. I then felt ashamed but not guilty. This was when I was younger. I’m much more casual about it now and even exploring a little bit. I still don’t think it’s the most ethical or dignified thing, but as long as the animal does not suffer physical or psychological stress I don’t see a reason to fuss about it. To me this is a guilty pleasure.
 
At first it was very infrequently visiting a particular video porn site that had it on it when I was in a completely depraved, horny mood and wanted to get off to something taboo. When it got to the point that I found myself there on a weekly basis and joined a forum for it...I guess that was the obvious sign.
 
For me it was after my 3rd or 4th porn video of a woman getting banged by dog and watching it ramming into her, her body especially her boobs swaying back and forth as she is enjoying the dog and then sensation the look on her face and the dog humping her and him enjoying it

And for watching a woman enjoying sucking on a horse's thing and enjoying watching her face and her sucking slowly enjoying feel of his thing in her mouth and the watching his reactions to the horse enjoying it and her enjoying the horse shooting a huge load into her mouth as she swallows it

They both mesmerized and I was shocked and surprised at how enjoyable it was to watch
 
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