Hey, I'm a lurker here. I come back every now and then to have a read or a watch but i don't consider myself a zoophile, because I'm in denial essentially.
By all accounts i am. I haven't had actual sexual intercourse with an animal but i have had experiences that i would define as sexual.
But every time after engaging in an act or watching porn involving animals i feel a huge amount of shame and tell myself it will never happen again. This has been going on for years. Like 5 years on and off.
My my most recent activity was last week when i was at my sisters. I let her collie lick my penis and i finished and i did feel ashamed but after a few minutes i got the urge to finger her. I was very gentle only using one finger and going slow but she let out a little yelp and i felt horrible, she was okay though she wasn't hurt. She's 1yo and not currently in heat so idk if i was doing wrong as I'm not very educated in it.
I guess i just wanted to talk to someone that's maybe been going through, or has been through similar? i just want to be sure of who i am and if that means accepting i am a zoophile then so be it
By all accounts i am. I haven't had actual sexual intercourse with an animal but i have had experiences that i would define as sexual.
But every time after engaging in an act or watching porn involving animals i feel a huge amount of shame and tell myself it will never happen again. This has been going on for years. Like 5 years on and off.
My my most recent activity was last week when i was at my sisters. I let her collie lick my penis and i finished and i did feel ashamed but after a few minutes i got the urge to finger her. I was very gentle only using one finger and going slow but she let out a little yelp and i felt horrible, she was okay though she wasn't hurt. She's 1yo and not currently in heat so idk if i was doing wrong as I'm not very educated in it.
I guess i just wanted to talk to someone that's maybe been going through, or has been through similar? i just want to be sure of who i am and if that means accepting i am a zoophile then so be it