I have been preferring dog porn for a while. Honestly, i have a solid attraction to men and i want a human partner, but each of my relationships has been complicated in a way that eventually made me want to disengage. Right now, however, I'm more financially stable then ever and on track to have a good retirement and it's because of my partners income. If I go zoo exclusive, I'll have to live on my own, maybe purchase a home which i because I'll want several dogs, and to do that, I'll have to move where homes are cheaper. It will require more money than I'd prefer to spend, but i feel the sexual liberty could be worth it. On the other hand, It's social isolation that i believe drew me to animals in childhood. I had a low-self esteem, was emotionally abused by my parents and betrayed by the boys i was attracted to in school and made fun of for my sexuality. I've mostly gotten over the trauma but the sexual attraction to animals remains. Socially isolating myself so I can entertain what i believe was an adaptive response to trauma feels like a step backwards. I'm afraid that I'll risk losing the social support network that I need. And what if get sick or am in need of help? So much for the tangible benefits of a human relationship then! Can I have your feedback?