BetaPackofThree
Zooville Settler
Was about 5-6 years go.
All started when I got his brother, Titus. Titus was about 7 weeks old when we brought him home ❤
A few weeks later, his previous owner, told us of a bro named K.O. from the same litter, that went to an owner who leaves him outside, caged, with dirt and mud at his feet... Just sad. So, couldn't have that and so my husband got him and brought him to our home.
Man, was so little and cute and sweet as ever when he met me at the door. Walked unleashed freely inside our home. Ever since then he's been our Aisland.
It's crazy, that with all other dogs, I loved them very much but as a non-zoo would their pet...
I always felt an underlying admiration and sexual attraction to dogs that would make me not wanna be alone with them. Lol like nervous.
However, with Aisland, it was an imprinting moment. He knew well before I did..
We were attached at the hip from the beginning and sure enough, the puppy years passed and we was becoming more and more infatuated lol
Again, I wasn't as confident a zoo as I am today, I didn't accept his love that was clearly there for ME.
I couldnt see and feel my attractions or be intimate, without getting into my own head and ruining it.
Funny that my husband could see the connection with us, few months of him being with us.
I remember I wanted to play with him on the floor one time on all fours.. Just you know, having him jump on me, lick me etc lol I remember, I felt indifferent, with my husband, see me like that... like I would get embarrassed and stop lol
I would be completely dressed lol bc I felt awkward. (Totally just stupid when I look back on it now.. )
This went on for a while.
Really too-oo-too long. I wasted a lot of time being ashamed and distant with my self and my family, when all the while, my loves were the most loving and loyal.
(If anyone has felt this way or is currently pm me if you ever want to talk. M of F.)
I shared this story because I see alot of the same stories on here. I didn't love myself, didn't even wanna try. And I was miserable.
Life Fail fr.. It is a huge regret in my life..
I wish I had someone like me to tell me a story back then, like mine, real as i gets, to shine a little light in that dark, judging, spot in your mind that I can relate to.
I know that my story is unlike any Ive read on here in a whole, and it may show how exactly stupid I was or am for living through it,
but it is mine. It's a bit of a rough one to share.. As yall can see...
Point is, Im happier then where I was and you can be too...
I wanted to share my story, so there it is. I hope it helps someone who needs it..
All started when I got his brother, Titus. Titus was about 7 weeks old when we brought him home ❤
A few weeks later, his previous owner, told us of a bro named K.O. from the same litter, that went to an owner who leaves him outside, caged, with dirt and mud at his feet... Just sad. So, couldn't have that and so my husband got him and brought him to our home.
Man, was so little and cute and sweet as ever when he met me at the door. Walked unleashed freely inside our home. Ever since then he's been our Aisland.
It's crazy, that with all other dogs, I loved them very much but as a non-zoo would their pet...
I always felt an underlying admiration and sexual attraction to dogs that would make me not wanna be alone with them. Lol like nervous.
However, with Aisland, it was an imprinting moment. He knew well before I did..
We were attached at the hip from the beginning and sure enough, the puppy years passed and we was becoming more and more infatuated lol
Again, I wasn't as confident a zoo as I am today, I didn't accept his love that was clearly there for ME.
I couldnt see and feel my attractions or be intimate, without getting into my own head and ruining it.
Funny that my husband could see the connection with us, few months of him being with us.
I remember I wanted to play with him on the floor one time on all fours.. Just you know, having him jump on me, lick me etc lol I remember, I felt indifferent, with my husband, see me like that... like I would get embarrassed and stop lol
I would be completely dressed lol bc I felt awkward. (Totally just stupid when I look back on it now.. )
This went on for a while.
Really too-oo-too long. I wasted a lot of time being ashamed and distant with my self and my family, when all the while, my loves were the most loving and loyal.
(If anyone has felt this way or is currently pm me if you ever want to talk. M of F.)
I shared this story because I see alot of the same stories on here. I didn't love myself, didn't even wanna try. And I was miserable.
Life Fail fr.. It is a huge regret in my life..
I wish I had someone like me to tell me a story back then, like mine, real as i gets, to shine a little light in that dark, judging, spot in your mind that I can relate to.
I know that my story is unlike any Ive read on here in a whole, and it may show how exactly stupid I was or am for living through it,
but it is mine. It's a bit of a rough one to share.. As yall can see...
Point is, Im happier then where I was and you can be too...
I wanted to share my story, so there it is. I hope it helps someone who needs it..
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