Questions? I guess? (Legality, therapy)

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I've bounced back and forth between denial for awhile now. I even tried to abandon this site after first discovering it.. I enjoyed it right off, but I guess everything's still new and intimidating for me. But truth is, I've logged on for the first time in months.. And just browsing the content here, I just. I know that this isn't just a fetish for me, or anything like that. Of course that's part of it, but.. I don't know. It's hard to stay away, and honestly, I'm happier not trying to. I want to.. not want it? I guess? I don't know if it's fear, or guilt, or both. But it's really difficult for me.

I think one of the hardest parts for me is I feel I can't properly "embrace" it. It's dangerous to, I could lose out on friendships, relationships with family, lose my pets.. Any number of things. Things I've seen mentioned before, by other users here. Being asked by friends and family "when/if i'll ever get a boy/girlfriend" or other things.. It's almost unbearable sometimes. It feels like such a dumb little thing, I don't know why I can't just ignore it. I just love my little one so much, and having to hide it feels dishonest and awful. Sometimes I almost fear my ability to hold back. How.. do you cope with that? Does that ever go away, or get any easier?
I'm sort of considering therapy for all my feelngs towards zoo/ my partner, but I guess I was wondering if anyone had experience with that? I've come to terms with what I am. I love my dog, I am not "sick" nor do I want "treatment" but, for these reasons and others, I still feel therapy might be beneficial for me? But does anyone have experience with therapists and these sorts of dilemmas? Obviously every therapist will be different, but.. Any insight would still make me feel better, I think. There's just so much I need to express and get off of my chest that I can't safely do with friends or family.. But is it worth trying? Will they just view it as something to "fix?"

Another thing.. I've been a bit anxious to log into this site for one other reason. I'm currently posting this from CA as I'm visiting family for the holidays, but I've recently moved to CO where bestiality is (I believe, anyway) a felony rather than a misdemeanor like it is here.. Which is scary. I don't download or save ANY zoo related files, with the "exception" of SFW images of my dog, if you could consider that with her being my partner and all. Would logging into/ using this site/ browsing the content here endanger me in CO? I mean, it's not like c///p, I don't think it's really monitored in the same way and from what I've sorta heard, unless I'm caught for something else or reported and actually had files saved, I should be fine? But I guess I just want to know for sure..
I really want to return and be more active here. This is an important aspect of my life and connecting with like minded people is important to me for many reasons. It makes things feel more normal and okay and it gives me a space to actually talk about things, ask questions in a safe space, express my love, without having to worry about my safety or well being. I guess it's just a bit daunting.. But, yeah. If anyone had answers for me regarding any of this at all, I would really appreciate it. Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read all of this,, it's scattered- it's late, I'm exhausted, it's more of a "stream of consciousness" type thing than straightforward questions. So I apologize for that
 
Well! I've only just realized after posting that this was in the wrong thread.. Very sorry. I'll copy everything and delete this shortly @w@
 
Don't worry your self so much as long as you don't post pics you use a VPN and a private browser and you made this account using a stand alone email address you are safe. As for the waking world as long as you keep it to yourself no one is going to find out that you are banging your pup unless you live in an apartment or close quarters with someone who you don't trust with your secrets. I know that this all can be overbearing but this lifestyle takes a lot of planning most of us here have a contingency plan just in case we do get outed which only happens because they are very social people. I only have sex with my girl when no one is around and I know I have no other plans lock the doors close the blinds and go at it just mind the noise levels cause then people might get suspicious. Everything is going to be ok. But God do I wish I could talk to people in person pm me if you want to chat im in Ohio btw.
 
Would logging into/ using this site/ browsing the content here endanger me
That depends on the laws in your country. You should either read that if it is understandable or look for localized information on that.
unless I'm caught for something else or reported and actually had files saved, I should be fine? But I guess I just want to know for sure..
I don't download or save ANY zoo related files
Yes you do.
Depending on what type of connection you are using and what is your computer setup, you likely have files saved.
For example any time your browser loads an image even if you do not explicitly click download image, that image is temporarily saved into a system folder for caching purposes. If you download an image and open it, the system generates thumbnails which are also saved somewhere. This is also true for apps like telegram.
When you delete the original file, the thumbnails usually remain on the disk. Temporary files are purged periodically depending on the settings of you computer. But deleting a file the usual way does not actually remove the file until it's location on the disk is reused by a different file. This way it is often possible to recover deleted files that are years old.
If you are using your phone, the situation is even worse. Phones are inherently the least safe device to use for illegal stuff because a regular user does not have as much control over the system as you would have on a PC.
If you are not using a VPN or TOR and your DNS requests are not encrypted, you ISP has logs of you accessing this website. If you are using a VPN, your VPN provider has those logs and you just trust this company instead of your ISP company. If you are using TOR in the regular mode without obfuscation, your ISP or VPN knows you are using TOR (but not what for).

As for therapists. What do you expect a therapy will give you?
There are two possible outcomes. Either the therapist will try to "cure" you from being into animals which you do not want, or they might try to help you accept it. Or they might actually report you. :D
I do not have any experience with zoo therapy but I believe you do not need another person to come to terms with being zoo.
There are some thread about therapy so you might want to read through those:
Additional information about therapy can be found on zoocommunity.org I think I saw some threads there too.
 
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For starters - remove the state you moved from and to. Information like that narrows way down who you are. how many people recently moved to (state a) and from state b?

Second - as someone who struggled very hard with my beast life I understand where you are coming from. There was a point I tried to distance myself from it; only be draw back and more engaged than previously.

While you may struggle to find a doctor willing to your specific topic, you can get advice from a stand point of sexual addiction. It will help you understand your triggers, how to cope and how to handle your desires safely. It will help you with your relationships etc rather than constantly hide it.

You will still have to decide to either share or keep hidden your specific interest; but it’s much easier to understand, and to communicate with people when you have a better understanding of yourself.

Part b- once I learned to cope with the voice in head feeling excited then guilty; I was able to own who I am. It was no longer an addiction because I controlled it rather than it controlling me. Life has been immensely better since!
 
For starters - remove the state you moved from and to. Information like that narrows way down who you are. how many people recently moved to (state a) and from state b?

Second - as someone who struggled very hard with my beast life I understand where you are coming from. There was a point I tried to distance myself from it; only be draw back and more engaged than previously.

While you may struggle to find a doctor willing to your specific topic, you can get advice from a stand point of sexual addiction. It will help you understand your triggers, how to cope and how to handle your desires safely. It will help you with your relationships etc rather than constantly hide it.

You will still have to decide to either share or keep hidden your specific interest; but it’s much easier to understand, and to communicate with people when you have a better understanding of yourself.

Part b- once I learned to cope with the voice in head feeling excited then guilty; I was able to own who I am. It was no longer an addiction because I controlled it rather than it controlling me. Life has been immensely better since!
@sarahsingletono98 Sound advise all round, having lived a longtime with the same issues, having a better understanding of oneself is a great start. Cheers LL
 
For a better understanding of what zoophilia is and some context on how it is treated by others and how some people dealt with it have a look here:
Especially the Understanding bestiality and zoophilia by Hani Miletski. She is a sexologist and has an e-mail address that she responds to. So if you decide you want some help, you could try writing her and ask for some contacts which she could have since it is her field.
 
OK, listen carefully. There are 4 different questions here.

Zoophilia is not and never can be illegal in the US. Zoophilia is a mental/emotional state and that would make it a thought crime, something constitutionally prohibited. That's why you can talk about it all you want.

Bestiality is a physical act and as such can be prohibited/regulated. Regardless of what the media says, the charging documents will say "bestiality" on them. So if you don't actually do it, it's just about impossible to prosecute you.

Porn is a giant grey area. To separate a given image or text from First Amendment protections, a long complicated procedure such as the Miller Test is needed. Unless you have something clearly out of bounds like pedo or crush, no prosecutor is going to spend $100K to win a $1K fine case.

Where reality gets ugly is public opinion. If someone publishes e-mails identified as yours where you express a desire for dog sex, your neighbors may start telling "Sean the Sheep Shagger" jokes or may ride you out of town on a rail. Sometimes that's worse than prosecution because courts are required to let you defend yourself, Wastebook is not.
 
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