Weckles
Tourist
Due to a break up…
I’m not even going to lie, I’ve been depressed a few months now. Slowly hurdling down a depression. My boyfriend doesn’t touch me anymore, and when he does it’s rare. I lost someone I really looked up to in my life due to old age and dementia. My family relationships haven’t been the best. It just hasn’t been good for me these past few months.
All this has really taken a toll on my relationship. I do bare minimum cleaning. I let things pile up. Etc.
I genuinely love my boyfriend but I can’t remember the last time I hear I love you. I wish I could and I wish I would’ve known it would’ve been the last time I heard it so I could remember details.
Yesterday we almost broke up. I guess I frustrated him so we had a small argument. I went on and told him I was sorry and that I can’t help my depression being so bad. I want to fix it and I want to be more productive.
I got to thinking and we have 2 dogs. Both are his. He’s had one for 11+ years and he was my first doggie partner. The other he got a few months after meeting me and personally he’s my favorite partner of the 2.
I’m sad. Not just for possibly being on the way to losing my boyfriend, someone I really wish to live the rest of my life with, but also because I won’t have a dog to play with anymore if we did part ways.
I’m actually been thinking about, if we broke up, where I would live or what dog I’d get for myself…
I’m not even going to lie, I’ve been depressed a few months now. Slowly hurdling down a depression. My boyfriend doesn’t touch me anymore, and when he does it’s rare. I lost someone I really looked up to in my life due to old age and dementia. My family relationships haven’t been the best. It just hasn’t been good for me these past few months.
All this has really taken a toll on my relationship. I do bare minimum cleaning. I let things pile up. Etc.
I genuinely love my boyfriend but I can’t remember the last time I hear I love you. I wish I could and I wish I would’ve known it would’ve been the last time I heard it so I could remember details.
Yesterday we almost broke up. I guess I frustrated him so we had a small argument. I went on and told him I was sorry and that I can’t help my depression being so bad. I want to fix it and I want to be more productive.
I got to thinking and we have 2 dogs. Both are his. He’s had one for 11+ years and he was my first doggie partner. The other he got a few months after meeting me and personally he’s my favorite partner of the 2.
I’m sad. Not just for possibly being on the way to losing my boyfriend, someone I really wish to live the rest of my life with, but also because I won’t have a dog to play with anymore if we did part ways.
I’m actually been thinking about, if we broke up, where I would live or what dog I’d get for myself…