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Jofec
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Hello everyone,
Circumstances forced me to write this thread. I apologize in advance for English. I'm not US or UK.
I'm an exclusive zoo. I've known about myself since I was 13. At the same age, I lost virginity with a mare. I've never had a human girlfriend. Actually, yes, one. It took a while. It didn't work, I didn't love her. There were no problems until I was younger. Problems increase with age. I have two horse girls. I spend all my time with them. It's getting weird for parents. I often reflect their questions about girlfriend, grandchildren, family. I can't resist for a long time. Another thing. I'm with the girls every day for several hours. Unfortunately, then I will come home and no one at home. Nobody will have coffee with me. Nobody talks to me about how I spent the day. I'm lying alone in bed. Another thing ... my parents would like me to move out. It doesn't have to be now. Not in a year. But one day it will come. And I know I won't pay for housing myself. In our country, housing is expensive compared to the paycheck. Two horses cost a pile of money a month and there will be no money for housing. Unfortunately, without horses, my life doesn't matter. Rather than sell my horses, suicide.
I don't know what to do next, I feel in a dead end. When I'm with the girls, I'm happy ... when I leave the stable, I'm depressed by all this. I don't know if anyone has a similar problem ...
Circumstances forced me to write this thread. I apologize in advance for English. I'm not US or UK.
I'm an exclusive zoo. I've known about myself since I was 13. At the same age, I lost virginity with a mare. I've never had a human girlfriend. Actually, yes, one. It took a while. It didn't work, I didn't love her. There were no problems until I was younger. Problems increase with age. I have two horse girls. I spend all my time with them. It's getting weird for parents. I often reflect their questions about girlfriend, grandchildren, family. I can't resist for a long time. Another thing. I'm with the girls every day for several hours. Unfortunately, then I will come home and no one at home. Nobody will have coffee with me. Nobody talks to me about how I spent the day. I'm lying alone in bed. Another thing ... my parents would like me to move out. It doesn't have to be now. Not in a year. But one day it will come. And I know I won't pay for housing myself. In our country, housing is expensive compared to the paycheck. Two horses cost a pile of money a month and there will be no money for housing. Unfortunately, without horses, my life doesn't matter. Rather than sell my horses, suicide.
I don't know what to do next, I feel in a dead end. When I'm with the girls, I'm happy ... when I leave the stable, I'm depressed by all this. I don't know if anyone has a similar problem ...