yourdreamguy
Tourist
Hi everyone, hope you're having a great time.
I know this is not the best place for this post but here goes anyway.
I'm an extremely private person. Not because I want to but I have some sort of communication disorder so I basically suck at talking to people.
Except for that, my life is great. I'm a Software Engineer, have a decent job and earning well over hundred thousand a year. Everything's perfect. I just suffer a lot from loneliness. I got no friends, even when I make some they eventually get bored of my silence and finds better things to do than hanging out with me. But I had very good relationship with my colleagues when I was doing desk jobs because I'm a nerd and I can help them improve in their career. Since I started remote job, I got nobody to talk to. Quite literally. I did get 3 pair of birds but I let them go. They were trying to fly away and I thought to myself, why not. I left the door open.
So, I feel more comfortable around pets than people. They don't expect me to talk nicely all the time and on context. I'm more of a cat person but I also love birds and dogs. I've been watching people getting all sexual with their pets for a long time. I can't get myself to have sex with a non-human being, it just feels selfish and forced upon. If I were a woman, it probably would have been different since I would be the one submitting.
It's not like I couldn't get a girlfriend. I had girlfriend before and it wasn't fun. I just couldn't keep her with all that sweet talk and praising required. I'm like a voiceless, emotionless robot on the outside but inside I'm dying to have company.
So, I thought, maybe I could find someone with similar interests. Those who wouldn't rely on sweet talks to keep the relationship alive, whatever it is, friendship or anything. People has all sorts of interests. I like traveling, gardening, having pets, making dumb crafts, working with electronics(I can make vibrator lol), gaming etc. You know, stuff that doesn't require lots of talking.
I was wondering. Finding another person who's into zoo gotta be THE HARDEST thing on earth. Honesty and trustworthiness isn't easy to come by. How do you guys pull that off? How do you figure out you both are into zoo? How do you even find out if the person you're talking to often goes out at night, walks down the street and looks at the sky hoping to see a shooting star? How do I know if a person interested in things I like? I can be brutally honest(dumb) and extremely trustworthy but since I can't even talk properly, nobody would know that. I might as well come off as rude. I know I probably can't apply anything you suggest but I'm still curious.
I know this is not the best place for this post but here goes anyway.
I'm an extremely private person. Not because I want to but I have some sort of communication disorder so I basically suck at talking to people.
Except for that, my life is great. I'm a Software Engineer, have a decent job and earning well over hundred thousand a year. Everything's perfect. I just suffer a lot from loneliness. I got no friends, even when I make some they eventually get bored of my silence and finds better things to do than hanging out with me. But I had very good relationship with my colleagues when I was doing desk jobs because I'm a nerd and I can help them improve in their career. Since I started remote job, I got nobody to talk to. Quite literally. I did get 3 pair of birds but I let them go. They were trying to fly away and I thought to myself, why not. I left the door open.
So, I feel more comfortable around pets than people. They don't expect me to talk nicely all the time and on context. I'm more of a cat person but I also love birds and dogs. I've been watching people getting all sexual with their pets for a long time. I can't get myself to have sex with a non-human being, it just feels selfish and forced upon. If I were a woman, it probably would have been different since I would be the one submitting.
It's not like I couldn't get a girlfriend. I had girlfriend before and it wasn't fun. I just couldn't keep her with all that sweet talk and praising required. I'm like a voiceless, emotionless robot on the outside but inside I'm dying to have company.
So, I thought, maybe I could find someone with similar interests. Those who wouldn't rely on sweet talks to keep the relationship alive, whatever it is, friendship or anything. People has all sorts of interests. I like traveling, gardening, having pets, making dumb crafts, working with electronics(I can make vibrator lol), gaming etc. You know, stuff that doesn't require lots of talking.
I was wondering. Finding another person who's into zoo gotta be THE HARDEST thing on earth. Honesty and trustworthiness isn't easy to come by. How do you guys pull that off? How do you figure out you both are into zoo? How do you even find out if the person you're talking to often goes out at night, walks down the street and looks at the sky hoping to see a shooting star? How do I know if a person interested in things I like? I can be brutally honest(dumb) and extremely trustworthy but since I can't even talk properly, nobody would know that. I might as well come off as rude. I know I probably can't apply anything you suggest but I'm still curious.