Highly struggling with how I feel about animals

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I remember one day around 4ish years ago that I was super bored and wanted to watch some porn but was super bored by what I usually watched. Very randomly I decided to search for dog and human porn. It certainly got the job done but I felt such a sinking feeling of regret after doing it. I was so ashamed and embarrassed of myself.

However a few months later, I came back to it again. I didn't know why I came back but I did. I got off again and it felt good but was again followed up by guilt and regret. For around 3 years this was what I did, immediately feeling horrible after everything.

Over the last year though it's really hot an all time high. For starters, I started seeking it out more often, finding exactly what got me off most. Then I started talking to zoophiles who convinced me to join here and ZC. But every time I get off I still feel horrific and like a failure.

I'm very confused about how much I like animals. Most days I don't have any super strong connection to animals (like no romantic or sexual feelings or anything). But some days I find I don't want humans, I want a dog instead. It's been such a confusing time for a good while now and I'm really struggling.

I've talked to a few people before and they told me it sounds like I am a zoophile. That also really scares me though.

If I'm just getting off to these videos, I would like to stop myself and get away because I don't feel good watching them. However it's not going to be easy.

Just kinda looking for advice honestly. You can ask me any questions you want under here. If you'd rather PM I'm good with that too
 
If you don't feel good about watching beastiality porn, don't watch it!
I don't watch porn at all, and I am perfectly fine.

Just go cold turkey, and when you want to watch that kind of porn you think really hard about that you really don't feel good about yourself watching those videos.
Go for a walk or go to the gym instead. Blow some heat off.
Best of luck!
 
If you don't feel good about watching beastiality porn, don't watch it!
I don't watch porn at all, and I am perfectly fine.

Just go cold turkey, and when you want to watch that kind of porn you think really hard about that you really don't feel good about yourself watching those videos.
Go for a walk or go to the gym instead. Blow some heat off.
Best of luck!
I honestly really struggle with not watching porn but I agree with you that it may be the only way to stop how I feel. It's overall certainly a super negative experience overall after a massive high.

I'm bad with feeling it strongest at nighttime a lot of the time so it's pretty hard to go walks or that at a time like that. I'm probably going to try and start going to the gym soon though as it'll hopefully put me off a little bit
 
I honestly really struggle with not watching porn but I agree with you that it may be the only way to stop how I feel. It's overall certainly a super negative experience overall after a massive high.

I'm bad with feeling it strongest at nighttime a lot of the time so it's pretty hard to go walks or that at a time like that. I'm probably going to try and start going to the gym soon though as it'll hopefully put me off a little bit
I will just asume you are a man, if not you can easily change to the female form of it in your own mind.

What happens after the high and you cum appears to be a very intense form of post nut clarity.
If the urge come at night, jerk off a few times before you go to bed.
The more drained your balls are the less horny you will be.
Keep them balls empty and sleep like a baby.
Physical exercise during your awake time have many positive effects, so work out and jerk off.
 
I will just asume you are a man, if not you can easily change to the female form of it in your own mind.

What happens after the high and you cum appears to be a very intense form of post nut clarity.
If the urge come at night, jerk off a few times before you go to bed.
The more drained your balls are the less horny you will be.
Keep them balls empty and sleep like a baby.
Physical exercise during your awake time have many positive effects, so work out and jerk off.
Thanks for all the advice I really appreciate it
 
Just do what feels right. Nothing to feel ashamed off. I battled with same issues too but learned to accept myself. We are perfect the way we are. You should just do what feels right. :)
 
Just do what feels right. Nothing to feel ashamed off. I battled with same issues too but learned to accept myself. We are perfect the way we are. You should just do what feels right. :)
There's like two different types of right that I'm kinda battling right now. One is my conscience and my head telling me that it's not something I'm interested in and that I'd regret it if I was ever to try anything.

The other side is the side where I'll have fantasies and urges to do something. The side that is hornier for lack of a better word. The one that would get caught up in the heat of the moment.

I'm not sure which one is the one I should follow. Right in terms of conscience or right in terms of pleasure.
 
Stop watching the porn as that makes you feel bad about yourself and start to be fucked by a dog to get the kinky pleasurable stuff.
Works very well for me.
The porn can never do justice to the real deal anyway.

Clear conscience and sexually satisfied, would that not be best for you?
 
There's like two different types of right that I'm kinda battling right now. One is my conscience and my head telling me that it's not something I'm interested in and that I'd regret it if I was ever to try anything.

The other side is the side where I'll have fantasies and urges to do something. The side that is hornier for lack of a better word. The one that would get caught up in the heat of the moment.

I'm not sure which one is the one I should follow. Right in terms of conscience or right in terms of pleasure.
Give it time, do not pressure. I hope you find the answers soon. :) I was nervous when I did first sexual things with a dog (he was neutered though) but it started to feel so natural and I loved it and I am glad I did what I did. Because I took the leap without always wondering that what if and should I have or not.
 
Stop watching the porn as that makes you feel bad about yourself and start to be fucked by a dog to get the kinky pleasurable stuff.
Works very well for me.
The porn can never do justice to the real deal anyway.

Clear conscience and sexually satisfied, would that not be best for you?
I think it's the whole idea of being with a dog that actually makes me feel bad over just the porn. The whole idea of it being an animal.

I'm kinda in a place where I don't know if I'm attracted to the idea of having sex with a dog or attracted to the danger and something I'm the heat of the moment, only for me to regret everything
 
Give it time, do not pressure. I hope you find the answers soon. :) I was nervous when I did first sexual things with a dog (he was neutered though) but it started to feel so natural and I loved it and I am glad I did what I did. Because I took the leap without always wondering that what if and should I have or not.
It's a whole scary concept honestly and I don't own a pet or anything. I'd be waiting a good while before I'd manage to get a pet
 
It's a whole scary concept honestly and I don't own a pet or anything. I'd be waiting a good while before I'd manage to get a pet
I do not own a pet yet too. And take your time my friend and see what feels right. No body pressures you to do anything which you might find scary etc. :)
 
I do not own a pet yet too. And take your time my friend and see what feels right. No body pressures you to do anything which you might find scary etc. :)
I know friends who have dogs but I'm not sure about how ethical it'd be to do anything with them. Like I feel like it'd be a betrayal of trust in a way and also just not right to anyone I think.

Is it bad that I just want to get away from the whole zooey feeling?
 
Is it bad that I just want to get away from the whole zooey feeling?
No, it is not bad. You should only do things that feel right and you want to do.
It is not something for everyone and that is okey.
 
No, it is not bad. You should only do things that feel right and you want to do.
It is not something for everyone and that is okey.
It's such an annoying feeling because when I'm into it I'm really into it. After the feeling though I'm disgusted by myself. It's been four years and it's only gotten the slightest bit better.
 
It's such an annoying feeling because when I'm into it I'm really into it. After the feeling though I'm disgusted by myself. It's been four years and it's only gotten the slightest bit better.
I hope you find the answers soon. I learned to pass through the guild and regret and accepted who I am (maybe my buddhist views helped me though). Like I said that give it time and do not try to pressure yourself or dwell on it. Do what feels right but most important is for anyone to accept themselves just the way they are. Each soul is flawless. *hugs*
 
I hope you find the answers soon. I learned to pass through the guild and regret and accepted who I am (maybe my buddhist views helped me though). Like I said that give it time and do not try to pressure yourself or dwell on it. Do what feels right but most important is for anyone to accept themselves just the way they are. Each soul is flawless. *hugs*
Thank you very much that's really nice of you. Thanks for the advice!
 
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