HappySpectator
Lurker
My wife knows I have a passing fascination with it. She definitely doesn't know the true extent to my desires, though to be fair I'm not sure I do either. I'm not really all that interested in telling her or letting her in on any of it. So I keep my proclivities to myself as I always have. I believe people live to experience things, so a melancholy does from time to time envelop me at the thought of fantasies unlived.