Hello everyone.
Please forgive my poor English, but I am learning and I had to go to the translator.
I don't have much time in this community. I was in BF for a short time years ago but it wasn't until this year that I entered fully. I am a 20 years old boy(Maybe trans girl in a future) who suffers from depression, anxiety and is very lonely.
I have never met people that I can call friends, just colleagues. According to my psychologist due to these and other problems, I isolated myself and my way of dealing with stress and forgetting my reality was / is pornography and masturbation. This is how I met zoophilia. Being in Facebook or WhatsApp groups, sometimes a user of those so-called trolls sent hardcore videos (gore, zoo, bdsm), although at the beginning I was not attracted, when I was 16 I started to see more material and it was there when it started to become a guilty pleasure. Personally I am more of the kind of seeing and not practicing, the idea of practicing it has never crossed my mind. In these years I have lived through various stages: where I only read stories, where I watched videos, where I looked for information, where I started to see a zoo with different animals, and now in 2020 it has practically become something daily in my life. Watching videos, looking for images or comics, reading stories, entering sites like this.
If I am here writing it is not just to free myself and be in a community seeking acceptance. I need tips. all the doubts and concerns about this "fetish" there are some that haunt my head every day: What will I do if someone discovers this guilty pleasure? What if I die suddenly watching videos or reading and my family discovers my history in some pages of erotic stories with content or zoo or even some saved video, what image would it leave? What if I am one of those people who talk when sleeping and I get to confess? What if being drunk I talk too much?
I am also afraid that this will affect me in my daily life, there are days when I go down the street and if I see a couple or person walking a dog, that question sometimes comes to me. Could he / she practice it? Or if it is possible that sexual intercourse ceases to interest me and only the zoo?
I have even come to think that if someday I have a partner (something that seems impossible to me unfortunately) what would be the right time to confess my attraction to the zoo, apart from trust what else would I need to have with that person or how should I approach the subject.
Sorry if it is a very long and unintelligible text. Again I apologize for my bad English. I just needed some advice
Cheers
Please forgive my poor English, but I am learning and I had to go to the translator.
I don't have much time in this community. I was in BF for a short time years ago but it wasn't until this year that I entered fully. I am a 20 years old boy(Maybe trans girl in a future) who suffers from depression, anxiety and is very lonely.
I have never met people that I can call friends, just colleagues. According to my psychologist due to these and other problems, I isolated myself and my way of dealing with stress and forgetting my reality was / is pornography and masturbation. This is how I met zoophilia. Being in Facebook or WhatsApp groups, sometimes a user of those so-called trolls sent hardcore videos (gore, zoo, bdsm), although at the beginning I was not attracted, when I was 16 I started to see more material and it was there when it started to become a guilty pleasure. Personally I am more of the kind of seeing and not practicing, the idea of practicing it has never crossed my mind. In these years I have lived through various stages: where I only read stories, where I watched videos, where I looked for information, where I started to see a zoo with different animals, and now in 2020 it has practically become something daily in my life. Watching videos, looking for images or comics, reading stories, entering sites like this.
If I am here writing it is not just to free myself and be in a community seeking acceptance. I need tips. all the doubts and concerns about this "fetish" there are some that haunt my head every day: What will I do if someone discovers this guilty pleasure? What if I die suddenly watching videos or reading and my family discovers my history in some pages of erotic stories with content or zoo or even some saved video, what image would it leave? What if I am one of those people who talk when sleeping and I get to confess? What if being drunk I talk too much?
I am also afraid that this will affect me in my daily life, there are days when I go down the street and if I see a couple or person walking a dog, that question sometimes comes to me. Could he / she practice it? Or if it is possible that sexual intercourse ceases to interest me and only the zoo?
I have even come to think that if someday I have a partner (something that seems impossible to me unfortunately) what would be the right time to confess my attraction to the zoo, apart from trust what else would I need to have with that person or how should I approach the subject.
Sorry if it is a very long and unintelligible text. Again I apologize for my bad English. I just needed some advice
Cheers