Hey guys. I haven't been able to sleep for weeks due to the fact that I have been hiding my zoophilia from my long-term boyfriend. We're soulmates and I haven't been able to tell him because I'm so scared people in my life will find out. But it felt so horrible having to lie and hide myself from them... and I still lie online, on my public art account, about how I hate zoophiles. Because I don't want to be cancelled for being attracted to these magnificent creatures.
So, I came clean and told him. I've told him a little before, a while ago, about how I dislike that part of me. So I'd get some sympathy and he wouldn't judge me. But this time I told him more. I said I don't feel bad about being attracted to dogs and how I don't see it as wrong.
I was so scared. But honestly... it didn't go horribly. He doesn't really understand it, but he definitely won't tell other people about it. He encouraged me to stop watching real-life porn about it, because he thinks its abusive towards dogs. He said it's because they can't consent. Which is an argument so many anti-zoos have... but dogs can and do consent. If they show any hesitation or discomfort, any good zoophile would stop right then. Only animal abusers would abuse a dog. I asked him why a dog topping a human would be abusive, and he said it would cause behavioral problems in the dog...
So I'm left feeling weird after this conversation. I can't stop thinking about it. He seemed weirded out for sure but he didn't judge me too hard or get mad or anything. It could have gone far worse. But it also leaves me to wonder, if someone lets their dog fuck them, does it cause behavioral issues with said dog? From my understanding after reading posts here, it doesn't. They know when it's appropriate and they pay attention to body language. Right?
I'm unsure if my zoophilia is clouding my judgment here. I'm having a hard time really accepting myself as a zoophile, because I do love animals and I really do not want to hurt them.
